YAY!! *hugs T gal-hug sty|e!* I am not fully back yet, but trying to sneak some online time here, so we will see how it goes!
Okay, so jealousy, mine for sure isn't going to be as long as our wonderful topic breacher, but I will do my best, I am still out of town, and the BF is freaky scaring me with talk of wanting to move here (where his grandmother lived, long story why we are back here).
Anyways, back to the topic at hand, jealousy. Yes, even the most balanced people have felt it from time to time, the key for me is to not let it get the best of me (I am sure I share this sentiment with you wonderful ladies!) I am however, always aware of he jealousy that I feel for my little sister. I mean, we are completely different, and I love her to bits and pieces, but sometimes I am jealous of her. She has this vibrancy, and fearlessness that I a tried and true conservative only wish to have. The funny thing is, the BF is the exact same way, and I understand why I fell in love with him (okay, that sounded a little McSteamy to McDreamy in this latest episode of Grey's, but I am sure you know what I mean) And don't get me wrong, there is no self loathing here, but I am a superserious person, it is just how I am wired (in RL, cause I do tend to cut loose here, may be an anonymous thing going on). I do know how to have fun, but I don't have that "Devil may care" attitude that makes my sister so audacious. She does care, she cares so much about things, but she is so ready for anything, and just wonderfully open that I get jealous. I love my life, and stress just seems to come naturally to me, I kinda thrive under the gun, but I do wish, every once in a while, that I could be more like her, take life by the horns...you know? Okay, enough about my pathetic (and now after reading it, seemingly irrational) jealousy, man, harsh topic T!