Evangeline: By the end of the first season I felt there were expectations for me to be someone I'm not. It was upsetting. I spent almost a month of my summer writing and reading, praying and meditating, and silently allowing myself to reconcile all of these things I'd experienced with the show and re-understanding this industry. Since the summer, I've started to see the fruits of this introspection. It comes in my fan mail. I read every single letter. Some just break my heart. I've cried over letters that have come in, from young women and older women alike, saying to me, "You know, you made me want to stop crash dieting and just be healthy. You are my role model. I want to be like you." It makes me understand why I'm doing this job, why I was led to do this job in the first place.