Being Erica

Season 3 Episode 1

The Rabbit Hole

Aired Monday 9:00 PM Sep 21, 2010 on CBC
out of 10
User Rating
25 votes

By Users

Write A Review

Episode Summary


At the end of Season Two, Erica walks through a door, her door, ready to face whatever is on the other side. Now everything in Erica's life - her job, her love life, even her therapy with Dr. Tom - starts anew, and gets turned upside down in the process.


Who was the Episode MVP ?

No results found.
No results found.
No results found.
Graham Greene (II)

Graham Greene (II)

Dr. Arthur

Guest Star

Fab Filippo

Fab Filippo

Seth Newman

Guest Star

Chapelle Jaffe

Chapelle Jaffe


Guest Star

Jeff Geddis

Jeff Geddis


Recurring Role

Melanie Scrofano

Melanie Scrofano


Recurring Role

Kim Roberts

Kim Roberts


Recurring Role

Trivia, Notes, Quotes and Allusions


  • TRIVIA (2)

    • Featured Music:
      "Open Your Eyes" by Lily Frost
      "Need I Say More" by Dee
      "Got Me" by Stars And Crosses
      "Outtathaway" by The Vines
      "Going Down The Road" by The Wailin' Jennys

    • Quote Dr. Tom uses in this episode:

      Pressure makes diamonds! - General George S. Patton

  • QUOTES (17)

    • Erica: Everything that you've taught me, it's made me braver, somehow.
      Dr. Tom: It's time, Erica. Choose a door.

    • Rebecca: Here's the thing, Erica, we learn from each other because we've all been through the same thing with Dr. Tom.
      Erica: I'm-I'm sorry. Dr. … Tom?
      Rebecca: Yeah, we're all patients of his. He didn't tell you?
      Erica (stammers): Well, he is a doctor and … I mean, of course, he has other patients. That just … that goes without saying … So, you said that this is Phase Two - and how many phases are there?
      Dr. Tom: Three.
      Erica: And the third phase, it's … what … exactly?
      Adam: You really have no clue? (Erica looks hesitant) You become a doctor, Erica. That's Phase Three.

    • Erica: I become a doctor?
      Dr. Tom: Well, let's not get ahead of ourselves. No one here is becoming a doctor … anytime soon. This is the next phase of your journey as a patient.
      Darryl: We do though, you know, we do get to "practice" on each other - instead of torturing real patients.

    • Adam: You say you're excited?
      Erica: Yeah.
      Adam: I don't believe it … 'cause actually you look upset and defensive. And check out your arms, they're all … closed up. You look like you're hidin' somethin'.
      Erica: Well, I'm not hiding anything. I'm fine, I'm just … (stammers) a little bit nervous, maybe, but that's normal given the circumstances.
      Adam: Nerves, sure, yeah, but that's not what I mean. It's like you're telling us what you think we want to hear.
      Erica: It really just feels to me like you're picking on me.
      Adam: I'm not, Erica … and I'm not judgin' you either. I'm just asking you to be honest.
      Erica: And why would I lie?
      Adam: Well, being a hundred percent honest in a room full of strangers is really hard.
      Erica (hesitates and sighs): I don't really know what … you want me to say.

    • Erica: Dave likes men!? Men … they like Dave?
      Julianne: Yes, chicken, that's how "gay" works.

    • Julianne: Okay, so tell me what, what do you know about E-Books?
      Seth: E-Books? Are you kidding me? I download everything I read. They're fantastic!
      Julianne: And that's what I'm talking about. E-Books put the "E" in future - and the future is now.

    • Brent: Look, I'm not saying I've been perfect in all this. "Brent" makes mistakes, okay? And what happened to you … what happened to you is my biggest. Let me talk to Galvin and see if I can convince him to give you your job back now that things have settled.
      Erica: Brent, I don't want my job back, 'cause … we have started our own publishing company.
      Brent: Oh, Erica. "We've started"? What are you, Julianne's assistant?
      Erica: No, I'm her partner. We're-we're equals.
      Brent: Equals?
      Erica: Mm-hmm.
      Brent: Right. She does the schmoozing and you fetch the vino - or the lattes - stand and smile while she talks a blue streak.

    • Dealer: Rock, meth, smack … I got it, you want it?
      Erica: No. Uh, no, thank you.
      Dealer: Come on, baby, I'll give it to you cheap. (grabs his crotch) You hook me up, I'll hook you up.
      Dr. Tom: She said she's not interested.
      Dealer (laughs at Dr. Tom's brown ensemble with a long leather coat and fedora): Who are you? Shaft? (Dr. Tom opens the coat to reveal a large handgun) All right, I'll leave this bitch for you.
      Erica: Bitch!? Excuse me?! (to Dr. Tom) Was that really necessary?
      Dr. Tom: What?
      Erica: The gun?
      Dr. Tom: Ah. (pulls out the water pistol and squirts it)

    • Adam: Oh, is that what I'm doing, is it, I'm avoiding the pain?
      Erica: Yes. I mean, you're out here flirting with nurses, you're delivering stolen watches, you're doing everything you can do to avoid being in that room with her.
      Adam: So now you're Dr. Tom?
      Erica: No , uh …
      Adam: So what, you got some quote for me? You think you're an expert after one session?
      Erica: I'm trying to help you and-and you won't let me.
      Adam: Then maybe you should just go.
      Erica (stammers): Adam …
      Adam: Just get outta here. Go. Just go!

    • Rebecca: Don't close up, stay with it, whatever you're feeling right now.
      Erica (in a rising, angry voice): Maybe I don't wanna feel whatever it is that I'M FEELING, OKAY!?
      Dr. Tom: Uh, you know, Erica, that may be true, but you know that ignoring it is not gonna make it go away.
      Erica: I feel angry … with you.
      Dr. Tom: Why?
      Erica: Because you-you did this. You came into my life and you made me trust you - and then I find out that I'm not the only one? (sobbing) I don't wanna do this and I don't wanna say this. (sobbing and sniffling) I told you that … that … I told you that I was ready - and that I wouldn't let fear hold me back anymore … and now all I can feel … is this horrible fear. Like … like … that I can't run a company, and that I can't be alone, and that … I can't … I can't do this without you … And I'm sorry, but … I'm not ready to be here.
      Dr. Tom: Erica.
      Erica: I'm not.
      Dr. Tom: Erica, don't you see? You are ready. You just proved that.
      Erica: How? By … by bawling and-and saying how stupid I feel?
      Dr. Tom: No, by facing it … by admitting it, you know, out loud, to us - to yourself.

    • Erica: I'm not gonna judge you, Adam.
      Adam: I hate her. She was an awful mother, and you're just … not supposed to say that
      Erica: Why was she awful?
      Adam: My dad … beat us - and she let it happen. You know, stood by, didn't stop him. And the reason I worked the night that she died was so that I wouldn't have to be here … and pretend to care … 'cause I don't. I really don't.
      Erica: If you don't care, Adam, then why are you here? Why is this a regret?

    • Julianne: I'm sorry, I'm looking for someone, no time to chat.
      Brent: If by "someone" you mean Erica, I think I saw her on a coffee break - with the other wait staff.
      Julianne: What do you want, Brent?
      Brent: To congratulate you on your new business venture - and on signing Seth Newman. Pickin' through River Rock's trash for scraps … suits you.
      Erica (walking up smiling): Hey.
      Julianne: Have you lost your mind!? You opened your big mouth to Brent!?
      Erica (stammering): Uh, Julianne, please. Before you …
      Julianne: Explode? Because you told Brent about Seth, a writer we don't have a signed deal with?
      Erica: I'm sorry, I …
      Julianne: It's basic, Erica. We're partners, so what you do, what you say, it effects me. Think about that the next time you decide to be a big hero.

    • Erica: From the first moment we come into this world, we feel : pain and joy and fear and rage. We learn to hide the feelings that frighten us - first, from others, then from ourselves. Many of us live our lives distant from our deepest feelings - and never stop to wonder : what would happen if we allowed ourselves to feel them fully, to express and share them with the world?

    • Julianne: Being totally self-consciously cheesy here, but, chicken, you kinda … you kinda complete me.
      Erica (happily squeals): Okay … but …
      Julianne: But what? Get it out, say it now.
      Erica: I'm also worried because we haven't always been equals.
      Julianne: That I will walk all over you and treat you like my assistant?
      Erica: Yeah.
      Julianne: Well, you know, Erica, I haven't always been the most sensitive person on the planet.
      Erica (playfully sarcastic): No-o, you?
      Julianne: Have I done something? You have to spell it out for me.
      Erica (exhales and clears throat): When you asked me to get the drinks, I just felt like …
      Julianne: Oh.
      Erica: You know, and I know that it sounds silly …
      Julianne: Oh, no it doesn't, but I didn't mean it that way …
      Erica: No, I know, I know.
      Julianne: But still, right? It-it felt … kinda like the old days?
      Erica: A bit.
      Julianne (sighs): Noted. I'm sorry.

    • (Ivan suggests $1,500 a month to rent Erica and Julianne office space)
      Julianne: Oh! Too rich for our blood.
      Dave: We'll give it to you for a thousand, lattes included - vanilla lattes.
      Ivan: David!
      Dave: Ivan, I've spent our relationship bending over backwards for you. Now it's your turn to bend over for me
      Ivan: What?
      Dave: You know what I mean.

    • Erica: Dr. Tom, just … one last question.
      Dr. Tom: Uh-huh?
      Erica: Did you know that I would … flame out the way that I did?
      Dr. Tom: Um, no. No, all I knew was that you didn't want to face what you felt … You know, it's like a … a pot of water - you know, you turn up the heat and, sooner-or-later, it's bound to boil over.
      Erica: Really? A simile, that's … that's all you got for me?
      Dr. Tom: "Pressure makes diamonds!" - General George S. Patton.
      Erica: Yeah, I've heard that one before.

    • Dr. Arthur: You look anxious.
      Dr. Naadiah: Trying not to be.
      Dr. Arthur: Well, how can I help?
      Dr. Naadiah: I'm concerned about Tom. Nothing's happened yet, but I'm worried.
      Dr. Arthur: If nothing's happened, why are you worried?
      Dr. Naadiah: This is a mistake, Arthur. Erica should be doing Phase Two with me.
      Dr. Arthur: Noted … again. But for now - denied.

  • NOTES (1)


    • Erica: Look, I'm not used to being dropped into the middle of a Tarantino film, okay?

      Complaining about being dropped into the middle of a "police chase", Erica alludes to the American director/screenwriter Quentin Tarantino - known for his action-thriller films and their outbursts of stylish and kinetic violence.

    • Dealer: Who are you? Shaft?

      Referring to Dr. Tom's whole "badass" attitude and brown ensemble (topped by a long leather coat and feathered fedora), the dealer alludes to the often leather-clad character Richard Roundtree played in director Gordon Parks' 1971 blaxploitation film, Shaft.

    • Julianne: Well, it looks like Fraggle Rock but it sounds like Queer as Folk.

      Describing the scene at "Goblins", Julianne refers to the remodeling taking place there by alluding to the strange cave-world of Jim Henson's Fraggle Rock and to the sexual orientation of its owners by alluding to the gay-themed, relationship drama of Queer as Folk.