"When our friends go all crazy and start killing people, we help them" - Xander
10
"Perfect"
Anya finally gets a flashback episode and like Becoming (I) and Fool for Love, we see the things and people that made her what and who she is, and what brought her to be washing blood off of her hands, Lady MacBeth style, in a frathouse bathroom.
In Anya's flashback, instead of Darla, Dru and Buffy, or Cecily, Dru and the Slayers, we have Olaf, D'Hoffryn and Xander. The latter may think that Anya re-vengeanced because "she was hurt and she just turned back to what she knew", but he doesn't realise how far back her vengeance went, how long it was her and what she gave up to be with Xander and to attempt to be human. Anya started off as Aud, a sweet girl who wanted nothing more to tend to her husband, played by Jerry the ER Receptionist, bringing him mead and giving out rabbits to the townsfolk "for goodwill and the sense of accomplishment that stems from selflessly giving of yourself to others." We learn where Anya's literal mode of speech comes from (Sweden), jealousy (her husband cheated on her with a bar-matron), and her fear of bunnies seems to stem from associating them with her husband's infidelity and perhaps even her transformation from Aud to Anyanka. We switch from scratchy sepia Bergman-esque life to Technicolor Hollywood (in English) as D'Hoffryn introduces her to the demon sorority. D'H thinks Anyanka is her true self but we know some part of her is still Aud: witness her attempts to persuade herself that the frat boys "got what they deserved" (one wonders what Anya was doing in the frathouse anyway; does she hang around there trying to catch one of them in a date-rape?).
Due to Xander's betrayal, Anya can no longer hang with the humans, so she has to fit back into the demon clan. Halfrek is congratulatory: "Anyanka is back to her old self again", but we remain unsure as to what Anya's true self is. In the third flashback, as St Petersburg burns, we discover that Hallie and Anya, sitting at a feast in their blood-stained gloves, were "somewhat responsible" for the failed Bolshevik uprising of 1905, that Anya has gone from "goodwill" to being a communist and that her identity is now tied up in her demon life: "Vengeance is what I do. I don't need anything else. Vengeance is what I am". Of course, by the final flashback we see that she has returned to her old Aud self, covering Xander with a blanket as she dreams of nothing more than being "his missus". "Who am I?" She asks. "I've found my guy". She lives through Xander, the man who has already got his name (even if one of them is Lavelle) which "he carries with pride". Naming is very important in this episode. Anya claims her maiden name was "lame-ass" and "made-up". By being Mrs Harris, she will finally have a name that she thinks of as her own, even though it is somebody else's. D'Hoffryn renames her Anyanka, but Anya (also what Xander claims she is called) is what she has become, neither fish nor flesh, human or demon. The parallels between Anya and Spike have been running for some time (and will continue to the series finale); they both were both hurt by love and both turned by a demon. They changed their names, their personalities, their lives. But now, both he and Anya want to repent, to redeem themselves; they are both now finding their way in the world, unsure in their own centuries-old skin. Willow too is linked with Anya. Whilst Xander wants to save Anya and Buffy wants to kill her, Willow uses magic and tries to get D'H to intervene; she has gone from disliking Anya to empathising with her, she too is struggling with the dark arts. She may be back to being the good college co-ed, but she still goes black and b*tchy when she has to cast a spell to quell (the very badly CGI-d) spider-demon. Buffy quickly kills the spider-demon, but it is not the real big bad of the episode.
There is no saving (or killing) of Anya, she will have to do that herself. The gang's arrogance in dealing with her (Xander believes he can save everyone by "talking with his mouth", Buffy with her strength, Willow with magicks) doesn't help her at all. She could easily transport herself away from the frathouse, but she chooses to stay and fight, knowing she is no match for the Slayer, it's a suicidal gesture. "Stop trying to save me, Xander", she tells him.
Meanwhile, another person waiting to be saved is visited by the first evil (in white!) who is everything Spike wants Buffy to be tender, forgiving, conciliatory, whereas when she does turn up (in black!), she is less than affectionate. Spike needed a soul to feel remorse, whereas Anya is already feeling it, demon or no demon. Xander is right when he points out that Buffy won't kill demons she's "boning". However, we see a little link between the demon and the demon-fighter Anya was judge, jury and executioner on the fratboys, Buffy states that: "I am the law". Both are wrong. Buffy's statement isn't the only reference to the past (Faith made a similar comment), we see a lovely fan-centred moment as Buffy reminds us that Xander failed to pass onto her that Willow was going to cast a spell to "cure" Angel. Her "the slayer is always cut off" speech foreshadows Buffy's alienation and overly wrought sense of responsibility towards the end of the series and I think there is a little omen re: Xander's future injury as the spider-demon strikes him across his eye. Later on, as D'Hoffryn repeats the catchphrase of the season: Beneath you it devours", he too has a hints to the future - that self-destructive Anya will find the peace-in-death that she desires.
In the flashback-to-Once-More-With-Feeling song, Anya states that she has "No need to cover up my heart", triply ironic as firstly, the spider demon ripped out the fratboys' hearts, secondly, everything she thought about men came true, and finally because as she and Buffy fight, she is stabbed through her heart (which is, as we know, no way to kill a vengeance demon). We have two unfinished statements; in the song as Anya, wedding-attired, throws open the balcony windows to proclaim her joy to the world, she sings: "I will be...." We immediately switch back to the present day and the silence as we see Anya pinned and pierced. What will she be? Whatever she intended to sing, it is irrelevant now. Everything that happened in Anya's life led to this moment. The other unfinished sentence also occurs in this scene as Anya rages at Buffy: "...or is this like one of your little pop-culture references I don't get, 'cos I'm a vengeance - " When she awakens from the stabbing, she is no longer a demon, just as when she cast the troll spell, she was no longer human, even though the actual transformation has and had yet to take place. In her desire to wash her hands clean, she begs D'H to undo the spell, willing to "selflessly give" of herself to save the fratboys, whom she earlier said "deserved it". This is not because Buffy has taught her a lesson, but because she knows what's right and wrong.
Unfortunately, D'H will "never go for the kill when [he] can go for the pain" and he murders Halfrek in place of Anya. We see that Anya's penalty is not death but more torment, and we see that it is not Buffy's place to hand out retribution, that comes from her father figure, the man who created her. The punishment fits the crime as Hallie immolates and Anya has to live with this as well as everything that she's done. We see the terrible power of taking wishes literally; Anya asks D'H why he did this and he replies: "Because you wished it". What people want in anger isn't what they want - the girl who had her heart metaphorically ripped out wanted to "take it back", just as Anya did.
Despite being over a thousand years old, Anya hasn't found her true path, she admits that "My whole life I've just clung to whatever came along". She is truly self-less. She has come full circle, but still doesn't know who she is. Eleven hundred years isn't enough to examine a life. At the end of the ep as Xander is still trying to save her, there is a brilliant BTVS moment as, echoing the scene in The Harsh Light of Day when she, Buffy and Harmony all walked away from their disappointing lovers, Anya and Xander stumble away from each other in opposite directions, she goes off alone, no rabbits, no men, no friends, no job, no socio-political creeds to sustain her, she is "just lately Anya".moreless