A violent shooting leaves Mac in a limbo between life and death and with a choice to make. While he struggles for his life, it's up to his team to bring the shooter to justice.
Detective Mack "Mac" Taylor
Josephine "Jo" Danville
Dr. Sid Hammerback
Same as it occurred in the season opener 8x01 Indelible the opening credits incorporate the old CSI:NY logo at the beginning of the sequence.
The very last lines of the episode belong to Macy Gray's song Coming Back To You and go as follows: 'I've been here before. I'll be coming back for more. Maybe this time I can stay' playing on the fact that the show's eventual renewal hadn't been decided yet when the episode was filmed.
The intro for this episode is way shorter than usual and doesn't have any dialogue.
Sid has used some of the money he has made out of his Hammerback Sleeper pillow to make a donation to The Hammerback Research and Forensic Development Center at Chelsea University.
Mac knew that Flack had shot Simon Cade dead after he killed Jess in 5x25 Pay Up and decided not to act on it.
Goof: Mac mentions that the Giants won the Super Bowl the year that Jess died. However, the episode where Jess dies (5x25 Pay Up) is set up on May 20th, 2009 and that year the Super Bowl winners were the Pittsburgh Steelers vs the Arizona Cardinals.
Mac's full name is Mac Llewellyn Taylor. His middle name is Welsh, coming from his mother's side.
The action in this episode has a time span of 6 months.
The prayer that Christine is saying at Mac's bedside is called The Apostle's Creed. The version she is reciting is from the mass of the Roman Catholic Church.
Mac: Claire? Where am I? What's happening?
Claire: You're dying.
Mac: I don't understand.
Claire: It's okay. I'm here. It's going to be okay.
Mac: There's so many things I wish I'd said.
Claire: No, no, you don't need to say anything. You are the love of my life. You know that?
Mac: I don't want to die. I...
Claire: I know. I know you're scared. It's okay to be scared.
Mac: I'm glad you're here with me. God, I love you.
Flack: (Exhales exhausted after a chase) Oh, son of a bitch. You run track or something? You on the Olympic team?
Flack: This is fun... this is funny to you? You realize you were in an automobile, right? You were not running 60 miles an hour.
Mac: Yeah, you want to ride back to the precinct or you walking?
Flack: Ride, please.
Mac: Get in. Come on.
Flack: They're so fast.
Mac: Come on, old man.
Flack: Sweet shades... built-in mp3 player. Holding an iPod is so burdensome, I know.
Luke Shelton: How do you know those are even mine?
Flack: We matched the songs on the various playlists to your account. Radiohead, I get. Following it up with Taylor Swift, come on.
Flack: Why'd you run, Luke?
Luke Shelton: I had a bag of weed in my pocket. I saw you coming towards me so I took off. You would have seen me ditch too if you were able to keep up.
Jo: What are you going to miss the most, Mac?
Mac: The people. The team. Danny's stubbornness. Lindsay's conviction. Hawkes' brain. Flack's sarcasm. Sid's quirkiness. Adam's... (groans) Adam. Your friendship.
Mac: And your Post-it notes.
Jo: They say we do God's work. What God would be cruel enough to take you away like this?
Mac: It's just my time, I guess. I didn't see it coming. I definitely thought there would be a tomorrow.
Jo: You can't leave, you know. I can't do this without you.
Mac: You know that's not true.
Jo: Yeah, you're right. I totally could but I don't want to. I need you to hold on, Mac.
(Adam is dancing a cha-cha-cha with a dummy)
Mac: Mind if I cut in?
(Adam puts the dummy away)
Mac: I was talking to the dummy.
Adam: It's weird, right? This whole dying thing?
Mac: It's not so bad, I guess.
Mac: I was scared at first. But then once the initial shock goes away and you come to terms with it... it's kind of peaceful.
Adam: Any regrets?
Mac: I'm kind of regretting getting shot. I wish I'd had more fun. Like you do. You live your life like no one else is watching. I wish I could do that.
Mac: You're gonna be a great CSI one day.
Adam: Thanks, boss.
Mac: I don't get it, Hank. So, what, you see the end, and you think: why not have one last exciting adventure?
Hank Shelton: No. I just didn't want to go to a nursing home. I can't afford home care. What am I, gonna get a job? Make a few bucks here or there changing a light bulb? I didn't see another way. I'm a burden to my son, you know? He would have put me in a home. Dying next to people I don't know, a few marbles left rolling around in my head, drooling, drooling on my bingo card. I just wanted to die at home!
(Sid is about to perform an autopsy seeming disturbed about it)
Mac: Is that me?
Sid: Only if you've given up.
Mac: I'm fighting, but it's, it's hard. I'm tired, Sid. I'm not as strong as I used to be.
Sid: That's a load of crap and you know it. You're not as young as you used to be, but you're certainly as strong. What's that phrase the kids use? Man up, Mac.
Mac: (Chuckles) Ouch. Don't make me laugh, Sid. It hurts.
Sid: It means you're very much alive.
Mac: You invented that pillow and became a millionaire. What's that like?
Sid: It's great! It's better than you can imagine. It's so perfect that this wealth came to me later in life. If it had happened sooner, I probably would have been exceptionally frivolous.
Mac: So, what are you gonna spend your money on?
Sid: I've made a donation. The Hammerback Research and Forensic Development Center at Chelsea University.
Mac: That's terrific.
(Processing the crime scene where Mac got shot)
Adam: We're gonna get this person.
Lindsay: We say that all the time. Trying to reassure family and friends, make them feel better. Now I hear it... and it doesn't do anything to ease the pain. Not one bit. And I will never say that to another survivor again.
Flack: (Watching the footage when Mac got shot by Teena) Cold-blooded bitch.
Mac: You're upset.
Flack: I keep thinking about all the things I didn't get to say to you. You know? If you don't make it through.
Mac: We're good, Don.
Flack: No, we're not. I should've told you... so many things. How I valued our friendship. Thanked you for saving my life. For always having my back. You know, I didn't even tell Jess that I loved her before she died. I'm zero for two on this whole concept of stepping up before it's too late.
Mac: You loved Jess.
Flack: And it still hurts that she's gone. It's been three years, and... the pain is as real as if it's only been three months.
Mac: I know, Don. I know that Simon Cade was down, and you stood over him, and you pulled the trigger.
Flack: Why are we talking about this now?
Mac: Because I don't want you to seek revenge for what happened to me. No payback. Just do your job. I know you've been trying to tell me about what happened that night for a long time. One of the many things you didn't get a chance to say to me.
Flack: If you knew, how come you didn't arrest me?
Mac: I thought about it. But I couldn't figure out what the upside was. You're a good cop, Don. A good man. And a good friend. The loss didn't equal the gain. And, uh, besides... the Giants won the Super Bowl.
Flack: (Laughing) What?
Mac: Every year I pick an improbable impossible, and if it happens, I let everything go. Things that bother me, conversations I've put off, words too hard to say, I just let 'em all go. And that year... the Giants won the Super Bowl.
Flack: And to think that all this time I've been a Jets fan.
Jo: Emergency contact... middle name... allergic to any medication... I've known Mac Taylor for two years, and I don't know a thing about him.
Christine Whitney: Llewellyn.
Christine Whitney: That's his middle name.
Jo: Right. You're not kidding.
Christine Whitney: No.
Jo: Mac Llewellyn Taylor? Oh, good Lord. I'd have never guessed that one.
Jo: Have you known Mac for a long time?
Christine Whitney: Not really. He meant a lot to my family. My brother. I'm just getting to know him.
Jo: Well, it takes a little patience... to crack that tough-guy exterior. He can be so damn stubborn one minute, the next, just... a huge comfort. And don't let him fool you, 'cause he does have a sense of humour. I just... love him. Can't help it.
Christine Whitney: Sounds to me like you're his emergency contact.
Hawkes: Mac's still in surgery. The surgeon's attempts to remove bullet fragments caused internal bleeding, but they got it under control.
Hawkes: And he's in good hands, okay? Mac's strong.
Lindsay: Why doesn't that make me feel any better?
Mac: (Observes as surgery is being performed on his body) How am I doing?
Hawkes: You're struggling.
Mac: What's the problem, Sheldon? I mean, besides having a bullet in my back?
Hawkes: Your body's reacting to the trauma of the surgery itself.
Mac: What's taking so long?
Hawkes: These guys are good, Mac. At the top of their field. They know what they're doing.
Mac: You miss it? Being a surgeon?
Hawkes: No. I love what I do.
Mac: You should get married, Sheldon. Start a family. Is Camille the one?
Hawkes: Ah, you sound like Jo.
Mac: Well, Jo's not wrong, you know. Going home to someone you love is... nice. Something I miss. I never became a father because I never felt it was the right time. Kept putting it off until next year. It was always going to be next year. And that's something I regret.
Hawkes: You can still be a father.
Mac: Now you sound like Jo.
Flack: Teena's in there with no way out.
Danny: Yeah, she's got two ways to get out of there. Either dead or in handcuffs.
Teena Milford: (Flack is standing over her, aiming his gun at her) Do it!
Flack: Shut up! That's short for you have the right to remain silent.
Lindsay: (About Lucy) She's exhausting.
Danny: Yeah, wonder where she gets that from. You never stop.
Mac: See that conference room over there? Second building, fourth floor from the top.
Lindsay: The one with the guy cleaning up all the notepads?
Mac: He's new. For the past four years, that's been a woman. I'd watch her discard empty water bottles, gather up notepads and pens. Same thing at the end of every workday.
Danny: Mac, I think you got too much time on your hands.
Mac: It looks like she finally quit. I don't even know her, somehow I'm proud of her. Sometimes you have to do what's best for you and make a change.
Lindsay: Why do I get the feeling this conversation isn't just chit chat?
Mac: I know the two of you have been talking about your future.
Lindsay: Don't be disappointed, Mac. We just have to figure out if the city is really the best place to raise Lucy.
Mac: I'm not disappointed. I know there are other opportunities out there and moving might mean you're leaving here. I just want you to know that I support whatever decision you two make.
Lindsay: Well, wouldn't be for a while, another year or two.
Mac: Don't put a timetable on it, Lindsay. You go when it's right.
Lindsay: (Hugs him) I miss you already.
Danny: I love you, Mac.
Mac: I love you too, Danny.
Christine Whitney: (Enters the hospital room and sits by his bedside) Hey, Mac. It's Christine. I'm just gonna be over here, okay? When I think of the day my brother died, I always think of you. That didn't sound right. Hmm... what I meant to say was that night that... that we were all in the hospital, the last thing he did was smile because you told that silly joke. Mac, I don't know if you can hear me. I hope so. Please don't go. I need you to stay.
Claire: Where are you going?
Mac: It's time. I'm tired.
Claire: No. No, you're not done yet. It's way too early. Mac, you still have another tour of duty.
Mac: They can go without me.
Claire: Well, that's a first. Why are you giving up?
Mac: I'm not giving up.
Claire: Yes, you are. It's not like you. That's not the man that I married.
Mac: Claire, I'm sorry that I didn't spend more time with you. That I made you share me with my work.
Claire: How come you're all of a sudden getting so sentimental?
Mac: Can't help but think that I should have done things differently.
Claire: Mac Taylor, there is not a single moment of each day we spent together that I would change.
Mac: I miss you.
Mac: I met someone.
Claire: I know. And I like her (Turns around and starts to leave)
Mac: Where you going?
Claire: You can't come. You're not invited. Be happy, Mac.
Coming Back To You by Macy Gray (end of the episode).
This I Promise You by NSYNC.
Brad Carter, who plays Darius Cole, also appears in the C.S.I. episodes 19 Down and One To Go.
Brendan Ford, who plaus Doctor #1, also appears in the CSI: Miami episode To Kill A Predator.
Original International Air Dates:
Canada: May 11, 2012 on CTV 2.
United Kingdom: May 26, 2012 on Channel 5.
Czech Republic: July 4, 2012 on AXN.
Turkey: January 14, 2013 on CNBC-e.
Norway: January 16, 2013 on TVNorge.
Germany: March 11, 2013 on Vox.
Finland: October 8, 2014 on MTV3.
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