When I first saw this episode, words couldn't explain how I felt. Cutting was a subject I had never seen explored in media or discussed anywhere aside from a brief "honorable mention" in health class somewhere before or after eating disorders. Aside from maybe a ten minute discussion in eight grade health, self injury was a mystery to me. As a result, when I turned to cutting as a way to cope with pain, I thought I was the only one and that I was crazy for doing it.
Ellie is not only easy to relate to but how Degrassi approaches this (at the time) rarely talked about subject is honest, despite a few "after school special" moments. The moment Ellie pulls her sleeve away to reveal her arm made my heart stop and even more the inexplicable moment where she suddenly cuts for the first time without any recognizable thought process leading her to it is so real, so raw, that anyone who has ever self injured in their life can see it and feel exactly what Ellie is feeling.
It's hard but therapeutic at the same time to watch this episode. For cutters, it can be a trigger. For those who don't really understand self injury but want to, seeing Ellie's silent battle with the stress and overwhelming pain of her life may help.
Regardless of who you are, this episode and how Stacey Farber portrays Ellie's struggle with finding a way to cope is amazing - definitely not an episode of Degrassi one should miss.





