Grey's Anatomy

Season 9 Episode 19

Can't Fight This Feeling

Aired Thursday 8:00 PM Mar 28, 2013 on ABC



  • Trivia

  • Quotes

    • Bailey: What do you need, Grey?
      Meredith: Oh, genetically, I don't know anything about Zola. And I want to be able to fight for my kid. I want you to map her. And if I'm gonna have to fight for her, I am gonna need to know if I'm gonna be around to do it. So I want you to map me, too. I want to know if I'm gonna get Alzheimer's.

    • Heather: Hey.
      Shane: I know what you're doing. And apparently you think I'm too nice to anything about it... but you're wrong. So you can try to snake neuro out from under me, but just so we're clear, I'm not going down without a fight.
      Heather: I'm not--
      Shane: Save it.

    • Stephanie: Thank you for not being a douche.
      Jackson: You're welcome. (Alex sits down) Where's Wilson?
      Alex: Probably with assface.

    • Owen: I talked to Russell. And he agrees with your course of hypothermia, although he may only be agreeing because he's afraid of you. Like you said... you're his boss now.
      Cristina: Yeah, what's going on?
      Owen: This guy has a little boy, Cristina, who is scared to death that both of his parents--
      Cristina: Oh, my god. A little boy? Why didn't you say that? I would've rethought everything. I would've actually tried to save the man.
      Owen: Cristina--
      Cristina: Do you think that I would make a decision that is not in the best interest of my patient?
      Owen: I just want this kid to see his dad again.
      Cristina: I do, too.
      Owen: I know. (they hug) I know. It's been a hell of a day.
      Cristina: Yeah, let's get out of here.

    • April: I'm so sorry I haven't been to visit you more today. (sighs)
      Matthew: You okay?
      April: Do you... Do you believe that god plans for two people to be together?
      Matthew: Yeah, I do.
      April: My patient died. Her husband is left with their new baby.
      Matthew: Oh, I'm so sorry.
      April: It just-- It doesn't-- It doesn't make any sense. Why would he bring these two people together, make them fall in love, o-open up to one another, make them feel like they were meant to be together, and the just... pull them apart?
      Matthew: April... I get it. I-I know today scared you, but I'm here. I'm... I'm fine. I promise you, I'm not going anywhere. And I love you, too.

    • Callie: Arizona, I just want to go home. I just want to curl up in a ball, do... (they walk into a room that has a video camera set up and Richard is there) Whoa. What-- What the hell? What is this?
      Arizona: Your TED speech.
      Richard: Sit.
      Callie: What? H-How? How?
      Richard: I made a call. We set up a video stream to the conference. You're going on live. (Arizona laughs, Callie looks panicked)
      Callie: Oh! I don't have my notes.
      Arizona (pulls the notes out of her pocket): Oh, yes. Yes. Yes, you do. Even though I know you it by heart. I mean, I know it by heart. Just start talking.
      Richard: Okay, it's almost time.
      Callie: But-- But I-- It's a terrible speech.
      Arizona: It's a great speech.
      Callie: I'm not... (turns to leave, Richard ushers her to sit down)
      Cameraman: Five, four, three, two...
      Arizona: Just talk. Just be who you are.
      Callie (live on camera): Hi. I'm Dr. Callie Torres. And... (pauses and sets down her notes) I've had a pretty bad year. I was almost killed in a car wreck. Then I... nearly lost my wife in accident that claimed the life of my best friend and the father of my child. And... some other stuff. I'm an orthopedic surgeon by trade and I work with cartilage, so I've spent a lot of time thinking about what holds us together when things fall apart. (looks to Arizona who smiles)

    • Shane: Dr. Shepherd, I've run a full post-op exam on Rachel. I'm gonna monitor her for the next four hours, but don't worry. I'll still be here early tomorrow morning to prep for Mr. Yoshida's craniotomy.
      Derek: Yeah, Ross, about that. Hunt's right. Everybody needs a shot at neuro, and you need a chance to see other specialties, so Brooks is gonna be on my service for the rest of the week.
      Shane: Oh. Okay.
      Derek: I'll see you when it's your turn again.

    • Meredith: Kasey, hey, you okay?
      Kasey: Yeah.
      Meredith: So this is Parker's echo. (shows Kasey on her iPad) That right there is the fluid around his heart. The I.V.I.G will fix that. He's gonna need another echo in six months. And... do you remember this? (holds up the list of diseases Kasey came up with online, Kawasaki disease was one of them) Parker has Kawasaki disease. You fought for you son. You didn't give up. You saved his life today. You were right.
      Kasey (crying): I was right?
      Meredith (smiles): You were right.

    • Alex: Vince Cruise's wife didn't make it. I figure the news might come better from you.
      Jason: I'm sorry. She's not my patient anymore. I passed her off to Kepner.
      Alex: Okay, but his wife was your patient when she first came in. The guy knows you. He trusts you.
      Jason: Dude, I'm sorry, but she is not my responsibility.
      Alex: You're a douche.
      Jason: No, you're a douche. You don't have a problem with how I do my job. You have a problem with who I'm dating.
      Alex: You're really not coming with me to talk to him?
      Jason: What do you think?
      Alex: Guess I'll be doing your job again.

    • Alex: Hey, you seen super douche around? (Stephanie makes a face) Peckwell? (Stephanie glares) Jason?
      Stephanie: Ah, conference room.

    • Meredith: I'm so sorry, Kasey. But I-I can't find anything wrong with Parker other than the strep.
      Kasey: So you're gonna discharge him?
      Meredith: I can't find a reason to keep him here. It's not surgical, his labs keep coming back clean.
      Kasey: I know I keep saying this, and I know it's crazy. I mean, I can hear myself sounding crazy... but this feeling won't go away, this feeling that there is something wrong with him. And I know you're telling me that there's nothing wrong with him and that I should believe you because you're a doctor and I'm just a waitress. But how do I ignore this? How do I ignore my gut telling me that there is something seriously wrong with my son?

    • Cristina: Could it be munchausen by proxy?
      Meredith: What, that she's making her own kid sick? No. She just has a strong feeling that it's something more than strep.
      Cristina: Or she's crazy. (about her patient) What's his core temp?
      Meredith: Still 93. I mean, it's strep, right? If it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck--
      Cristina: Mer, the duck's strep test positive.
      Owen (walks in): What happened?
      Cristina: He had an M.I he coded.
      Owen: Why didn't you wake me?
      Cristina: Why would I? He's my patient.
      Owen: So what are you doing?
      Cristina: Uh, therapeutic hypothermia, just 24 hours. I'm cooling his body so he'll avoid another attack.
      Owen: But-- But he just had surgery. This could increase his risk of infection and bleeding.
      Cristina: Or it could save his life.
      Owen: Did Russell agree to this?
      Cristina: You know, I don't know. I didn't ask him. 'Cause he's my patient. (Owen walks out)
      Meredith: I think he's gonna tell your teacher.

    • April (after her patient dies): I don't know why this one's hitting me so hard. It's not supposed to happen this way. It's... It's not right. I can't tell him. I can't tell him. I, uh, and I can't make him feel worse just 'cause I feel bad.
      Jackson: I-- I'll do it.
      April: No, no. I'll do it. I can do it. I just... I need a minute. (starts sobbing, leans on Jackson's shoulder)
      Alex: Hey. I was, uh, coming to give the mom an update on her baby-- Elyse Cruise.
      Jackson: Yeah, she didn't, um... she didn't make it. We were gonna go tell the husband now.
      April (crying): No, I was. I was. I-I will. I just-- I need... (inhales) I... I just have to pull myself together.
      Alex: Chest Peckwell's name's on the file. You want me to make him do it?
      April: Yes.
      Jackson: Yeah.

    • Owen: So any idea when the kid's dad is gonna get transferred out of the C.C.U? He's pretty freaked out right now.
      Cristina: No, no idea. He's stable but his hemoglobin is still low. That aortic repair took a lot longer than I thought. (yawns) Oh, I have to be back on rounds... (checks watch) in 29 minutes. Ugh. Should I sleep or should I shower? I could sleep in the shower. Oh, but I'm also starving. Have you eaten? (looks down and notices Owen is sleeping)

    • Callie: Ooh, Bailey. You have to map me. I need to know which parent I take after. My dad eats three salads a day and has high cholesterol. My mother, bunions.
      Richard: If Torres gets mapped, I get mapped.
      Bailey: Hey, my genome sequencer is not a toy. It is an expensive and complex piece of equipment, to be used for people with serious conditions.
      Callie: Oh, like this guy? 'Cause you should really map his genome, look for the idiot gene. He managed to snap his elbow after lighting himself on fire when he wanted a smoke while covered in gasoline. (Bailey rolls her eyes and walks out)
      Arizona (walks in): Callie, I asked for an ortho consult, and they sent me to you. Weren't you supposed to leave hours ago?
      Callie: I was, but then... baked Alaska.
      Arizona (sighs): I'm so sorry. Well, hey, look at it this way. Now you have time to spice up your speech for next year. And I still need an ortho consult in O.R. three when you're done.
      Callie: Spice-- Spice up?
      Arizona: No, I didn't say that.
      Callie: Uh... You did, though.
      Arizona: No, no. I'm just saying that these-- These talks are never about what they're... about.
      Richard: I-I heard one about floating algae pods, and then it ended up reminding me to live every day to the fullest. It was very inspiring.
      Arizona: Yeah, yeah, and yours is just about, you know... cartilage right now. But no one sells cartilage like you. And it is-- It's a great speech.
      Callie: You know, this invitation was the one uncomplicated good thing that's happened in a while, the one thing I was really looking forward to.
      Arizona: Yeah, and I'm telling you that it's great.
      Callie: No. You're telling me that it's not... finally. And it helps. I feel better about not going. I'll see you in O.R. three.

    • Jackson: I'm just gonna check her burns. How's she doin'?
      April (sighs): Not well. She's acidotic, and her creatinine's sky-high. (about their patient's husband) You know, they dated in college. But then her dad died, so she had to leave school, and they lost touch till about three years ago, when they both randomly decided to move from Wisconsin to Seattle and join the same bowling league. How weird is that?
      Jackson: That people join bowling leagues?
      April: The universe kept pulling them together, just... waiting for them to see that they were meant to be together, and then...
      Jackson: And then a tanker explodes, and she ends up in the hospital. Yeah. Your paramedic is gonna be fine, by the way.

    • Heather: No, Shepherd still hates me. Now he just makes me do tricks.
      Shane: It takes more than just good instincts with Shepherd. You have to be prepared, diligent--
      Heather: Says his star pupil. I'm his circus act.

    • Psychiatrist: Are you getting enough sleep?
      Kasey: No, of course not. I told you, he's up all night.
      Psychiatrist: And it's just you, no husband, no boyfriend, or partner?
      Kasey: It's just me.
      Psychiatrist: Well, that's a lot of pressure on you.
      Kasey: Are you a psychiatrist?
      Psychiatrist: Kasey, just listen--
      Kasey: Oh, my god. You are. (to Jo) You think I'm crazy. You think I-I skip work and I drag my kid to the E.R. because it's fun, because-- because I enjoy this? My son is sick, okay? He is sick. He used to wake me up every morning at dawn by jumping on my bed. Now I can barely get him up. He does this thing before school-- I let him run out and get the newspaper-- It's his big kid chore, he loves it. He hasn't done it in a week and a half. I show him cartoons, and he doesn't care. I try to get him to eat... I mean, I even gave him potato chips for breakfast once, and... nothing. (Mer overhearing this, starts walking over) I know... that I am not a doctor, but you have to believe me. You have to. You have to.
      Meredith: Hey, hey, hey. I believe you. We're gonna take care of your son. (to Jo) Admit him. I believe you.

    • Matthew: I'm sorry you have to stand there for so long dealing with my ass.
      Jackson: Ah, it's fine. I'm a plastic surgeon. It's not that big a deal to me.
      Matthew: Actually, can we not talk while you do that?
      Jackson: Sure. I feel for you, dude. But I have seen way worse.
      April (walks in): Oo-kay. I'm gonna come back later.
      Matthew: April--
      April: It's cool. I'm, uh, I'm just gonna-- I'm gonna leave now. Yep. Now. (walks out)
      Jackson: Like that. That was worse.

    • Jo: Kasey, what's wrong? What are you doing back here?
      Kasey: This isn't strep. Whatever you prescribed him did nothing.
      Jo: It takes at least 24 hours for the antibiotics to start working.
      Kasey: Yeah, but then he should be getting better, and he's getting worse. This isn't strep.
      Jo: Please just calm down.
      Kasey: Calm down? Calm down? My son is sick. He's sick, and you gave him medicine, and it's not working. And now you just keep dismissing us, just like all the other doctors did at Seattle Pres, and urgent care--
      Jo: Wait. Hang on. You've been to both of those places, too, this week?
      Kasey: Yeah, and I'm not gonna let you push me around like they did. You either don't care about my son or you don't believe me. Either way, you suck and I want someone else. Find me another doctor!

    • Stephanie: The baby's dad just arrived. Myers is bringing him up.
      Alex (about Jo): I still don't know what she sees in that d-bag.
      Stephanie: Right? What does she see in that guy? He's so handsome and friendly, charming, nice.

    • Heather: Dr. Shepherd, where did you get "It's a beautiful day to save lives"? Is that from a movie?
      Derek: No, it's not from a movie.
      Heather: Are you sure? 'Cause sometimes I think I'm making something up, and then I'm watching a detergent commercial, and I realize, that's where I got that from.
      Derek: Brooks, you know how sometimes people downplay the difficulty of a task by saying, "It's not brain surgery"?
      Heather: Sure.
      Derek: This is brain surgery.
      Heather: Right. Sorry.
      Shane (whispering): What are you doing?
      Heather (whispering): He makes me nervous, and I just want him to like me.
      Shane: Clearly not the way to do it.
      Derek: Okay, Ross, now I have exposed the dura, so why don't you come closer and get a better look?
      Heather: He loves you.
      Shane: I've been in 20 surgeries before he ever invited me to his side of the table. It could take a while, but he'll warm up to you. (a nurse hands Shane forceps, he drops them, Heather catches them)
      Derek: You've got some fast hands, Brooks.

    • Owen: Uh, just looking for a status report for the patient's kid.
      Cristina: The injury extends into the aortic arch. So in order to maintain head perfusion, I have to bypass in two circuits. I'm just waiting on Russell for a second opinion.
      Owen: You had to call Russell for this?
      Cristina: Not really. But ever since I became his boss, I like to make him think that he's still mine.

    • Callie (muttering to herself): Please don't be surgical. Please don't be surgical. (walks into the E.R.) Oh, it's surgical.
      Arizona: Hey, there you are.
      Bailey: Oh, no. Me first.
      Callie: Okay, okay. What have we got?
      Bailey: Yeah, bike messenger caught in the blast.
      Arizona: My patient's in a lot of pain.
      Bailey: Everybody's patient's in a lot of pain.
      Callie: Yeah, these are all gonna need surgery. Page Dr. Garrity. My plane ;eaves for-- for TED in four hours.
      Patient: You're going to TED? (Callie nods) Lucky. My roommate went last year. Did tequila shots with Bill Gates
      Bailey: It's a fancy people frat party.
      Callie: Oh, you'll be singin' a different tune next year when you're there with your genome stuff.
      Arizona: Ooh, map my genomes. That sounds like fun.
      Bailey: It's not spa treatment. It's science.
      Callie: Just like building new cartilage. As I say in my speech--
      Arizona: Okay, Callie. Callie. The patients.
      Callie: No, you're right. I should keep it fresh for the conference anyways.

    • April: Matthew?
      Matthew: Oh, hi.
      Nicole: Yeah, superman here broke protocol and ran into the crash to shield a kid from the blast with his own body.
      Matthew: Well, it seemed like the right thing to do at the time.
      Nicole: He could've died.
      Matthew: Yeah, but I didn't. I'm fi-- (Nicole slaps him) Ow. I'm fine. Just go ahead and go. You got more important patients than me. Go save a life or something.
      Jackson: Yeah, go ahead. I'll-- I'll check him out.
      April: Okay. Um, I-I will be back as soon as I can. Just-- Just don't go crazy and go into shock or bleed out or something--
      Matthew: April, I'm fine. I'll see you soon.

    • Derek (looking at a C.T scan): Speaking of bad news.
      Shane: Ugh. Right frontal lobe hemorrhage. That could be why she's perseverating.
      Heather (walks up): Oh, cool. Is that an epidural hemorrhage? (they glare at her) Sorry. I'm interrupting. You guys were having a moment or something.
      Derek: What do you want, Brooks?
      Heather: Well, Chief Hunt says I need to learn brainy things. So I'm with you guys today.

    • Owen: Shepherd, what are you doing?
      Derek: I got your page. A tanker blew?
      Owen: A tanker didn't blow. I mean, what are you doing with Ross? Didn't you get the memo?
      Derek: Oh, we're supposed to read those?
      Owen: Yeah, I need you to start using other interns. I can't have attendings playing favorites. These kids need a well-rounded education.
      Derek: Ross, are you feeling poorly rounded?
      Shane: No, sir. I'm very rounded.
      Derek: See? He's very rounded.
      Bailey (walks up with Richard): Hey, I heard about the accident. A tanker blew?
      Owen: A tanker didn't blow.
      Derek: Bailey, I haven't seen you outside your genome lab for a week.
      Richard: Oh, speaking of which, when can I have my genome mapped? I have an aunt who died of breast cancer. (they all look at him) It can happen in males.
      Bailey: Uh, no. Yeah, it can. It's just, now I'm thinking about your breasts.
      Richard: When did you say that tanker blew?
      Owen: The tanker did not blow. (they all look disappointed) Don't look so disappointed.

    • Stephanie: Hey. Did a giant tanker really flip over?
      Alex: Where's Wilson?
      Stephanie: With Grey. You've got me today. So how big was the accident? Do you think anyone got impaled? I...
      Alex (walking by a room, sees Jo & Jason kissing, he pounds on the door): Wilson! Stop sucking face and check your pager.
      Jo (walks up to Stephanie and sighs): I can't believe I didn't hear my pager.
      Stephanie: Yeah. It's hard to hear when you have a tongue in your ear.

    • Callie: Okay, so then we coax those initial cartilage cells to multiply--
      Arizona: Don't look at your cards.
      Callie: So... Then we coax those initial cartilage cells to multiply. After two months, the-- the uh, original 200,000 have... now I've lost my place.
      Arizona: Relax.
      Callie: No, I can't relax, okay? I have to do the speech at the TED conference in less than 48 hours. The TED conference.
      Arizona: Um, do that thing where you picture everyone in the audience naked. Th-That helps.
      Callie: I'm just-- I'm gonna start from the top, okay? Articular cartilage. Articular cartilage regeneration offers new hope for patients... (Arizona starts unbuttoning her shirt) What are you doing?
      Arizona: I'm, um... helping. (they kiss)

    • Meredith: Zola's up.
      Derek: No, she's still asleep. We're good.
      Meredith: No, no. She's up.
      Derek: Did you hear something?
      Meredith: No.
      Derek: But you know she's up?
      Meredith: Yes. (Derek gets out of bed and opens the door and finds Zola standing there, he smiles at Meredith)

    • Kasey: Dr. Grey, what do you think this is?
      Meredith: I-I think it's strep.
      Kasey: Yeah, but then he would be getting better. I'm sorry. I know that you're a surgeon. You don't even normally handle cases like this.
      Meredith: No, it's, uh... I own the hospital, and I can do whatever I want. I want to do some more tests.

    • Meredith: (opening voiceover) Let's say you're standing in an O.R., staring at an aneurysm that's embedded deep into the patient's frontal lobe. There are three things you'll need to remove it. You'll need confidence, you'll need an 11-blade, and some really good instincts.

    • Meredith: (closing voiceover) There are some feelings that refuse to go away. They're little distractions whispering in your ear. Some things just get under your skin. Try as you might, you can't ignore your instincts. It's like they say always follow your intuition.

  • Notes

    • Original International Air Dates:
      Canada: March 28, 2013 on CTV
      Norway: April 23, 2013 on TV2
      Sweden: April 24, 2013 on Kanal 5

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