Isobel "Izzie" Stevens
Dr. Walter Tapley
Jane Doe/Ava/Rebecca Pope
Throughout the episode Dr. Walter Tapley repeatedly refers to George as O'Leary.
Bailey's baby, Tuck is 14 months old. This means 14 months of Grey's time has passed since the two-part, superbowl episode which aired in season 2. The episodes are It's The End of The World and (As We Know It) They were episodes 16 and 17 of season 2.
The Chief's phone is a Blackberry Curve 8000 series.
Rose: We spent a night together and then you vanished, now I wish that I was secure enough to handle that without a bruised ego and a lot of processed sugar, but I'm not. (moves to leave)
Derek: Wait, wait, wait. Can't we just make this easier? Look, I don't want... See, I've done complicated. I don't wanna do that again. Can't this just be easy? Fun? We don't need that fairy tale thing right now. We just need a little happy. Hmm? (they walk hand-in-hand out the door)
(Mark goes to get on the elevator, the doors open and Erica and Callie are standing there)
Mark (smirks): Ladies.
Callie: He's thinking about a threesome.
Mark: I am not.
Callie: You are. You have been... all day.
Mark: Okay, fine. I got a new leaf, not a lobotomy.
Erica: You couldn't handle the two of us.
Mark: Oh, but I could. I won't, but I could.
Erica: You wouldn't find it intimidating?
Mark: Not at all. (Callie laughs. Erica grabs her face and kisses her)
Erica: See? Too much for 'ya. (exits the elevator, leaving Callie standing there shocked and dismayed)
Mark: Damn it! On-call room, right now. (he exits the elevator, Callie is still in shock, it takes her a minute to follow him)
Bailey: Our son has been punching other children.
Tucker: Yeah, I know.
Bailey: Whatch'u mean you know?
Tucker: It's happened before. I'm dealing with it.
Bailey: Wait a minute. I had to bribe the director of the day care center to get him back in. I had to promise to bring apple slices and give free mamograms to the teachers. Now, why aren't you telling me what's happening?
Tucker: I don't judge how you do surgery, don't judge how I deal with the baby.
Bailey: Well, obviously you didn't deal with it. He's punchin' other children.
Tucker: Of course he's punching people. He used to be with me all day. Now, he's in day care every day so he can spend ten minutes with you every three hours.
Bailey: Oh, so that's what making him violent? (George hears them fighting, and knocks on the door, and offers to play with Tuck for a minute. Bailey agrees, George exits with the baby) Look, if you can't communicate well enough to tell me that...
Tucker: Don't lecture me, Miranda Bailey. I'm not one of your students. I know with all the time you spend around here, it's hard to defrienciate sometimes.
Bailey: No, I spend my time here because I'm building a life for us! I spend my time here because I don't have the luxury of being able to take a year off and spend it with our child, and- and knowing that my career's going to be there waiting for me when I'm ready to go back!
Tucker: Luxury? So you think spending all day every day wiping noses and changing diapers is a luxury?
Bailey: No, I think it's a beautiful thing that you get to do. And you take it for granted!
Tucker: I take it for granted?
Tucker: You think I take our family for granted?
Bailey: No, I did not say...
Tucker: You did say!
Bailey: I work because we...
Tucker: You love your work!
Bailey: And I love my family, too!
Callie: Hey, so lemme get this straight, if I walk into an on-call room, you are not gonna follow me? (laughs)
Mark: You ever think about why you need sex all the time? Is replacing something? Or...
Callie: I use it to clear my head. So... (opens the door) On-call room.
Mark: We can sit in there and talk, but we're not having sex.
Callie (whiny): Why? What do you wanna talk about?
Mark: At lunch, you seemed to want to talk about threesomes.
Callie: You are so not a new man.
Mark: I mean, I guess if you had to have a threesome, Erica Hahn wouldn't be a bad choice, right? I mean, she brings that whole "We're naughty and we're getting sent to the prinicple's office" thing to it. C'mon. You never thought about reaching across the OR table and pulling down her mask, and ripping off her scrub cap, so that you can grab a handful of that blonde hair...
Callie: Stop! Stop talking about Erica Hahn. (exhales) Forget it.
Richard: I am the Chief of surgery.
Erica: I am not killing Walter Tapley, I don't care who you are.
Callie: Should I leave?
Richard: No. (to Erica) He's dying anyhow. You'd rather see him die on my watch than under your knife?
Callie: I should leave.
Richard: I said no. Is there something going on with all the women that when I speak, they simply ignore it? (to Callie) You don't leave. (to Erica) You review the file again. And if either of you see my wife, tell her the right thing to do is to return a man phone call.
Meredith: You're not even going to watch the Walter Tapley surgery?
Cristina: I don't want five minutes with Tapley. I want five years. Tapley's a star-maker. That's why the Chief's a star. Five minutes with Tapley is a slap in the face, like giving an alcoholic a sip of wine.
Meredith (sees Lexie): Lexie's coming over. Let's try to keep the carnage to a minimum.
Lexie (to Meredith): Hey, uh, can I talk to you about something?
Meredith: Maybe some other time. (rolls her eyes toward Cristina)
Lexie: Uh, but..
Cristina: Okay, look. She hates you, okay? She's not gonna say it to your face because she's too polite. But she thinks you're annoying. And you showing up here like the good little girl Daddy didn't abandon is like the worst thing that's happened to her in months. And that's saying a lot coming from Meredith Grey. (Meredith looks shocked, doesn't know what to say, Lexie looks upset and walks away)
Meredith (exhales): It's gonna be okay.
Cristina: You wanna bet?
Derek (about Meredith): Was I happy when I was with her?
Mark: Off and on.
Derek: I think I idealize it. I mean, you wouldn't hang on to a woman who's unavailable, unpredictable, right? You'd move on, keep it casual.
Mark: Don't sell yourself short. Allow yourself to grow with Rose. Share experiences. Build memories.
Derek: Is this the new leaf?
Derek (laughs): Needs work. (walks out)
Mark: Oh my, God. This is going to kill me.
Lexie: Dr. Yang who is even more evil than usual wants me to do a central line.
George: Okay, this is a big day for me. In there is Tapley and Tapley is God. I'm the Chief's intern, so that makes me close to God, which means I can't help you right now, as un-Christian as that may sound.
Lexie: No, you're right. I'll do Walter Tapley's central line myself. So if I puncture his lung, he'll get over it.
George: What? She wants you to do Tapley's line? I'll do it.
Cristina (overhearing, sitting behind the desk, putting paperclips into a styrofoam cup): Yay! Yay for Georgie. Georgie saves the day.
George: I give you Tapley, and you pass it over to your intern? What the hell's wrong with you?
Cristina: Hey, you think if you kiss the Chief's ass enough by taking car of Tapley, something magical's gonna happen? Like what? (George gathers supplies for the central line, ignoring her) You'll earn your magical resident wings? Oh, well no. No, not gonna happen, George. You're stuck! You are where you are. The only way you'd get out of your miserable situation is if Burke were here, because you were Burke's guy. For some reason he pitied your pathetic ass. But he's gone now. (George is walks off with the supplies) No wings for Georgie. (Lexis is standing there shocked by Cristina's words. She then follows George)
George: He punched someone named Harrison
Bailey (to Tuck): You punched a child?
George: Apparently there was a graham cracker involved.
Bailey: Over a graham cracker?
George: They said they want you to talk to him.
Bailey: What? He's 14 months old. What do they think I'm going to do, give him a lecture on non-violent conflict resolution?
George: I really don't know.
Bailey: My son punches other children! Perfect!
Rose: Okay, the sex, I thought it was mind-blowing myself but I'm getting the impression that you had a really bad time.
Rose: Why are you avoiding me?
Derek: I'm sorry. I lost a patient. I'm not trying to avoid you.
Rose: So you not calling me after the sex is you being a dedicated lifesaver?
Derek: It is.
Rose: So, are you gonna come over tonight? (Derek nods, Rose walks away)
Erica (about Tapley): Have you read the file? His arterial pressure is through the roof.
Richard: He's aware of the risks.
Erica: Well, in that case, fine. I don't know what I was so worried about. I may go down in history as the surgeon who killed Walter Tapley, but hey, at least they're writing about me.
Richard: Erica, sit down. (she does so) Let me tell you a story. 38 years ago, when I was a...
Erica: I'm sorry. Is this gonna be a story about how you were a struggling black med student who wanted to be a surgeon and no one would give you a chance, and Walter Tapley gave you that chance. He mentored you and without him, you wouldn't be in this hospital today?
Erica: I'm still not gonna operate on him.
Callie: Something is wrong with her.
Cristina: No, I'm fine.
Callie; She cleaned. Cleaned the apartment, which she has no idea how to do. So, she basically just pushed dirt around.
Meredith: Oh, leave her alone. Not everybody has to be happy all the time. That's not mental health. That's crap.
Callie: Walter Tapley's here and she doesn't wanna meet him.
Meredith: Well, that's bad.
Cristina: You know what, Torres? Mind your own business.
Callie: You- You need to get help. You're killin' me. (walks off)
Meredith: You hang out 'til Hahn gets here and you might get to meet Tapley.
Cristina: I don't give a damn about Walter Tapley.
Meredith: Cristina. Are you in the dark place?
Meredith: Me, too.
Izzie: Rebecca? Where have you been?
Rebecca: Hi, Izzie.
Izzie: I called you and left like 50 messages.
Rebecca: You seem kinda of upset.
Izzie: Well, you're not pregnant first of all and Alex has been turning his life upside down to be your baby daddy, and I can't tell him because of confidentiality. So, yeah, upset.
Rebecca: You can talk to Alex about anything. I want him involved. And, I am pregnant, you kind of know.
Izzie: Okay. So, if you're not trying to trap Alex with a fake pregnancy, you won't mind if I do another test, just to be sure.
Rebecca: Trap him? Are you out of your mind? I'm pregnant. And that's a good thing. I want this baby, I've always wanted a baby.
Izzie: You have a baby.
Rebecca: Of course I do. I want another one. Do the stupid test again, it'll be fine.
Callie: Give me two minutes I'll meet you in the third-floor on-call room.
Mark: No. We're gonna sit, enjoy a nice meal together.
Callie (scoffs): I don't get it.
Mark: I've turned over a new leaf. (points to his pants, then to his head) From now on if you want this, you're gonna get this too.
Erica (walks up): Shove over, Sloan. Torres and I are gonna share a Sapphic salad.
Mark: Did I miss something?
Callie: Yeah, we're lovers. Didn't you know?
Erica (sultry voice): It's a love that dare not speak it's name.
Callie: Uh-hm. Look me in the eye and tell me you're not thinking about a threesome.
Mark: I'm not. The old Mark would, but that's no more.
Callie: Really? You're not thinking about her and me and you and a video camera? (Erica and Callie get closer to each other, Mark gets up. Callie laughs) Yeah, on-call room. Ten minutes.
Richard: What are you doing with Bailey's child?
George: Dr. Bailey and I are in love. And I'll be heading back to Vegas with her as soon as my divorce with Dr. Torres is final.
Richard: We need to write Adele again. She replied to my email but all she sent was a typo. She's no better at this than I am.
George (looks at the email): That's not a typo sir, that's a wink
Richard: Well that's a semi-colon and a closed parenthesis?
George: Turn it sideways.
Richard (he turns it sideways): Well what the hell does this mean?
George: She's flirting, sir.
Richard: Oh... oh, that's good! ... O'Malley, good work today. (George walks out of the office)
George (to Tuck as the walk down the hall): You know what that was? That was the 'attaboy'. This may have been the most exhausting day of my life, my back is killing me, no offense, and I haven't seen the inside of an O.R in... I don't know how long. But- But I got the attaboy. I'm turnin' it around. And you're gonna get the punching under control, right?You and me. Boy, it takes us awhile, but we get there.
Lexie: Are you okay?
Cristina: Don't ask me if I'm okay.
Cristina (scoffs): You make me sick. Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own.
Lexie (moves to walk away but stops): Dr. Yang, I just scrubbed in on Walter Tapley's double valve replacement. I watched Dr. Hahn excise a piece of his pericardium from like three inches away. That's what I got to do while you made nots in charts. So whatever crap you wanna rain down on my head, go for it. Because I just saw the inside of Walter Tapley's heart and that is something you will never take away from me.
Meredith (enters the bathroom, Dr. Wyatt is in a stall): I need to talk to you.
Dr. Wyatt: Make an appointment.
Meredith: I don't want an appointment, just to get my chart back. I'd like you to get it right now.
Dr. Wyatt: I would like to go to the bathroom in peace. It seems like everybody's dissatified here.
Meredith: Where do you get off suggesting that I am a coward and a quitter? Are you trying to make me feel bad about my life, so that you can fix me?
Dr. Wyatt: We can talk about it therapy.
Meredith: No! I don't need therapy.
Lexie (walks in): I forgive you.
Lexie: No. I forgive you. I forgive you for treating me like crap, and I forgive you for letting your friend treat me like crap.
Lexie: I don't know how you get up in the morning, I honestly don't. Our dad abandoned you. And your mom by all acounts was the meanest person ever and you can't let Derek love you and it all really, really sucks. But ever since I knew you existed I had this fantasy about my big sister and you have failed, on every occasion to live up to that fantasy. But I still love you, whether you are capable of letting me or not. So, I forgive you. (storms out of bathroom)
Dr. Wyatt (comes out of bathroom stall): Two o'clock work for you?
Meredith: Yeah. Okay.
Meredith: We've got this patient and she's got true love. You wanna know why? Because her boyfriend doesn't exist. Derek is all broken up over her, like it means something that she's having an affair with a hallucination.
Dr. Wyatt: But Derek wasn't ready to give up on the relationship and you were.
Meredith: No, I didn't give up. I wanted to try again and then he went and kissed Rose. So, he's the one that messes up, not me.
Dr. Wyatt: But it's a relationship. People make mistakes, and you stand back waiting for him to fail so you can say "Aha! Now I quit."
Meredith: No, it wasn't working.
Dr. Wyatt: Was your life not working when you let that slip out from under you?
Meredith: Okay, when are you going to stop suggesting that I'm suicidal?
Dr. Wyatt: When you start acting like someone that wants to be alive.
Meredith: Give me my chart.
Dr. Wyatt: Why?
Meredith: Because I'm not suicidal, and if it says that I am, then it's wrong.
Dr. Wyatt: What happened last year when you fell in the water?
Meredith: I almost drowned. Do you think I did that for kicks?
Dr. Wyatt: You put your hand in a body cavity that contained unexploded ordnance.
Meredith: I was trying to save a patient!
Dr. Wyatt: Why is it that every other person in that room had the sense to hit the deck? You know, people run away from this line between life and death. You seem to stand on it and wait for a strong wind to sway you one way or the other. You're careless with your life. You're not slitting your wrists but you're careless. Probably because your mother told you you were a waste of space on this planet. The problem is you believed her. And if you don't watch out, one of these days you're going to die because of it.
Meredith: Hand me my chart. Now! (Dr. Wyatt gives her the chart) And don't ever talk about my mother again.
Dr. Wyatt: We had our first honest conversation about your feelings, and now you want to leave. That timing doesn't strike you as strange?
Meredith: No, and I'm still firing you.
Dr. Wyatt: No, you're quitting.
Meredith: No, I'm not quitting. I don't quit things.
Dr. Wyatt: No, actually you do. Your mother quit your father. Your father quit you. You quit your boyfriend and if I read your hospital chart correctly you quit your life momentarily on a couple of occasions. You quit. It's what you know how to do.
Meredith: Now you're really fired.
Richard: Hahn, Walter Tapley's coming in today. Do we have anything special that he can scrub in on?
Erica: Walter Tapley is coming here?
George: The chief was his student.
Erica: You studied at the right hand of god? Wow.
Richard: We need something impressive.
Erica: I will stab someone in the chest if I have to.
Meredith (closing voiceover): Don't wonder why people go crazy. Wonder why they don't. In the face of all we could lose in the day... in an instant, wonder what the hell it is that makes it hold it together.
Meredith: My mother tried to kill herself when I was a kid, after the love her life disappeared. I never told anybody that before.
Dr. Wyatt: Okay.
Meredith So you think I'm broke?, fix me. 'Cause I'm no quitter. Let's go.
Mark (about Rose): You didn't call her?
Derek: When was the last time you called a woman after having sex?
Mark: Well, that's gonna change. I'm turning over a new leaf.
Derek: What was wrong with the old leaf? So they called you a whore, you were a happy guy.
Richard (walks up): Walter Tapley needs a double valve replacement and Hahn refuses to give it to him.
Mark: What's her problem?
Richard: She thinks she's gonna kill him.
Derek & Mark: Lightweight.
Richard: Since when do surgeons turn me down?
Derek: It's her choice. She's the one opening him up.
Richard: Yeah, yeah, yeah. ... Oh! And another thing. If you spend a night with a woman and call her the next day, but she doesn't call you back, does that mean she had a lousy time or does that mean her answering machine was consumed in a fire?
Mark: See? The Chief calls the next day.
Derek: Well, you don't have to call her back. You just met this person. It's new, it's fun, it's casual.
Richard: It's my wife.
Derek & Mark: Oh.
Richard: So what do I call again?
Mark: Well, another call looks desperate.
Derek: Send her an email. Invite her to dinner. Just be casual, confident.
Mark: Sexy. ... I mean, romantic.
Meredith (opening voiceover): The problem with being a resident all the time is, you feeling crazy all the time. You haven't slept in years, you spend everyday around people with massive crisis, you lose your ability to judge what's normal in yourself or anyone else. And yet people are constantly asking you how you're doing? How the hell are you supposed to know? You don't even know how you're doing.
International Episode Titles:
Czech Republic: Riziko ztráty zdravého rozumu (Risk of Losing a Healthy Mind)
Slovakia: Zbláznim sa (I Will Go Crazy)
Original International Air Dates:
Australia: June 8, 2008 on Network 7
Italy: July 21, 2008 on Foxlife
Germany: September 24, 2008 on ProSieben
Sweden: October 1, 2008 on Kanal 5
Belgium: October 30, 2008 on VijfTV
The Netherlands: November 3, 2008 on Net 5
Finland: November 26, 2008 on Nelonen
Norway: December 2, 2008 on TV2
Romania: February 3, 2009 on TVR1
Czech Republic: April 16, 2009 on Prima
Music Featured In This Episode:
1. Walk Like An Egyptian by The Puppini Sisters plays when Meredith quits Dr. Wyatt and Cristina vaccums
2. Your Red Dress (Wedding Song At Cemetery) by Alaska In Winter plays when Meredith and Cristina are eating lunch and Cristina tells Lexie, Meredith hates her
3. Uh Oh by Electrocute plays when Meredith is in the bathroom with Dr. Wyatt
4. About Today by The National plays when Meredith and Derek are waiting for their patient's boyfreind to show up
5. The Wolves (Acts 1 & 2) by Bon Iver plays when Cristina s sitting in the hallway talking to Lexie
6. Sky by Joshua Radin (featuring Ingrid Michaelson) plays when Meredith and Derek tell Andre, Greta won't wake up
Episode Title: Losing My Mind
The title of this episode is a reference to a song written by Stephen Sondheim for the 1971 musical Follies. It was first performed by Dorothy Collins and has since been covered by many artists such as Shirley Bassey, Liza Minelli and Michael Ball. Losing My Mind is also a song by Maroon 5 and The Black Crowes.
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