Meredith: So, we've all agreed and uh--
Derek (walks in and sits down): No, wait. We can't do this. I saw the plane. I went to the hangar and I saw the... pieces of our plane laid out on the floor like a jigsaw puzzle. If we agree to settle, they do the investigation, and we can't do anything with the results.
Bayview Representative: Bayview aeronautics will take the results and act accordingly.
Derek: Oh, I'm sure you'll be very thorough. Big companies are always very good about self-policing.
Callie: Mistakes happen, Derek. Accidents happen. We make mistakes that can cost lives, too.
Derek: Yes, we do. But when we do, we have M&Ms, we pore over the files, we make sure it never happens again. And we try to make sure future patients never have to go through that grief. They don't have to sleep with the lights on every night because the darkness is too much. We can't just stand by and let this happen to other people's... Lexies and Marks. We have to do something about it. We have to make this right.
Lawyer: If I could interject for a moment--
Meredith: Be quiet.
Lawyer: Your decision does have to unanimous.
Owen: She said, be quiet.
Derek: Callie... What are you thinking?
Lawyer: My advice at this time--
Mer & Owen: Shut up!
Callie (crying to the lawyer): You're not one of us. You don't know. You have no idea what we've been... Derek's right. We shouldn't take the money. We can't take it.
Dr. Thomas: You know, I was, too. In a plane crash. In Vietnam. Everyone on board the plane died but me. I never, uh, I never have told anybody about that around here. You know, it's... Uh, would you like a smoke?
Cristina: Oh, I don't smoke.
Dr. Thomas: Me neither. Not anymore. I mean, these things could kill you, you know?
Cristina (laughs): Wh-What?
Dr. Thomas: Well, you know... it seems like... everything kills you these days.
Cristina (smiles): Yeah. (laughs) Yeah.
(Arizona is sitting on the bathroom floor)
Callie: Are you okay? Where's the nurse?
Arizona: I di-- I didn't like her so I fired her.
Callie: Oh, great. Great. That's just great. Why are you...
Arizona: I thought... that I could get to the toilet... on time by myself. Apparently, I was wrong.
Callie: Did you fall? Are-- Are you okay?
Arizona: Do I look okay? I am sitting in a pool of my own urine.
Callie: I'm putting you in the shower.
Arizona: No, just get out!
Callie (starts the shower): Hey! Do not talk to me that way!
Arizona: Please! Please get out!
Arizona: Do you hear me? You did this! I can't even pee by myself!
Callie: Yeah, and that's a problem because you now stink! This bathroom stinks! (Callie lifts Arizona up)
Arizona: Get off of me! Get--
Callie: I am not sharing my home with anybody who smells like this! (they are both now in the shower)
Arizona: Get off of me! Get off of me! Get off of me!
Callie: I have no where else to go! This is my life now, too! (they both start crying)
(On the phone)
Owen: Yeah, we're meeting in an hour about the settlement. Have you decided?
Cristina: No, I don't care.
Owen: Wh-- So... Do you want to think about it some more or--
Cristina: No, no, I just-- Oh, uh, settle or-- or don't settle. It-- It doesn't matter. You know, whatever the group wants to do is fine with me.
Owen: Okay, um... I'll call you and I'll let you know.
Cristina: No, no, don't. I mean, uh, just send me a check. Or, you know, I'll-- I'll get the lawyers to call.
Cristina: We can't keep doing this.
Owen: I know.
Cristina: I'm here now.
Owen: I know. So... bye.
Bailey (cleaning the microwave in the attendings' lounge): It is a horror movie inside this microwave. A horror movie. Oh, they are... entitled, ungrateful children and they should know better. Not that I care. I don't care. I'm done caring.
Richard: Okay, so what's really going on?
Bailey (groans): ... Tuck let go of my hand.
Richard: Uh, what?
Bailey: Tuck-- He let go of my hand. I took him to his first day of kindergarten, and I was, you know, ready for the tears and the good-bye, and how hard it was gonna be, and he just let go of my hand. He didn't even look back. He walked in, saw a toy he liked, and didn't look back. (scoffs) I called his dad. He was... busy. (sighs) He's getting married again. I mean... and she's very nice. I-I like her. Whatever. He was busy. So I called Ben, and he was studying up to observe his first laparoscopic surgery. He was so excited--
Richard: Everybody's movin' on.
Bailey: And I'm here, doing appys and choles, 'cause that's what a general surgery attending does, appys and choles. While everybody else is off conquering new things, I'm stuck. And I didn't care. You know, I mean, this was my choice. I'm not even sure I noticed...
Richard: Until Tuck let go of your hand.
Bailey (voice breaking): 'Til Tuck let go of my hand.
Richard: You know what happens when someone lets go of your hand?
Richard: You get it back. It's a good thing. You know, interns let go, and... Tuck let go, and even Ben let go. And they're all still there. They all still love 'ya. But it means you get your hand back. It means you have time-- Not to wash the dishes-- To do something with, to get out there, to find diseases to cure, to take it to the next level. Hell, uh, it means invent the Bailey method. But you gotta get out there, do something. And don't look back.
April: I- I'm sorry I ran off like that. I just...
Jackson: So I am not gonna pretend it didn't happen. I can't do that.
April: I know. I, um, me either. I ca-- I cant stop thinking about it. The more I think about it, the more-- The more I try not to think about it, I'm thinking about it. So--
Jackson: Yeah, I know. I know. Do you want to get married?
April: Uh, what?
Jackson: Because if you're serious about this whole revirginizing thing, that means that the next guy that you sleep with is probably going to be your husband. Right? That's what you want. And I am not ready to be anybody's husband. And I really don't think you're ready to be anybody's wife. So let's remember that it happened. Make sure it doesn't happen again. Unless we want it to. Unless we are... ready.
April: I'm, um, I can't... I can't be near you or I might...
Jackson: Me too.
April: Okay, so we, um--
Jackson: We stay away from each other... for-- for a while.
April: Okay. Um, so I'm just gonna... walk away now.
Jackson: Um... bye. (neither of them move and April kisses him)
Jo: Dr. Karev, I've rounded on your pre-ops, your post-ops, I've run your labs, and I am updating your charts right now.
Alex: What about my consult on the J.R.A kid? You schedule that yet?
Jo: Um, no, I-I haven't had a chance to--
Alex: Are you kidding me? Stop with the charting and do it now. (Jo starts to cry) Or don't.
Jo (crying): No, I'm-- I'm sorry I'll schedule it. God, I can't believe I'm crying in front of my boss. I told myself that I wouldn't do this. (sniffles) Look, I'm not supposed to be this person. I don't fail. I was valedictorian of my high school, I graduated Cum Laude from Princeton, I was first in my class at Harvard. How am I not getting this? I've somehow become the loser intern. I-I blew the appy with Dr. Grey, you've been piling on the scut, so clearly I pissed you off somehow.
Alex: You get scut because you're an intern. That's what interns do. It's the best way to learn. And... you haven't pissed me off.
Jo: I haven't?
Alex: No, I'm just... (sighs) Dr. Torres may have told me not to... flirt with you because it may be possible that I dated a couple of other interns.
Jo: You mean, Heather.
Alex: Yeah, her.
Jo: And Leah.
Jo: And Susan, Stacy, Tina, Irene. Don't worry about the flirting. I have absolutely no interest in you since you've already screwed every one of my friends.
Alex: I should go. ... 8:00A.M tomorrow, I'm doing a nissen. Don't be late.
(On the phone)
Cristina: Mer, we chopped up this heart and it was amazing. I mean, you should see how this guy handles myocardium.
Meredith: Are you sleeping with him?
Cristina: What? No. He's like 100.
Meredith: You know who did sleep together? April and Jackson.
Cristina: No way. Kepner did it?
Meredith: She did it.
Cristina: Uh, finally.
Meredith: Except she's not doing it again.
Cristina: What do you mean?
Meredith: Clean slate, she's revirginizing.
Cristina: Oh, please. No, she's there, he's there. All she has to do is hear his voice, and she's not gonna be able to think straight.
Callie: The settlement meeting is at 8:00 tomorrow night. Are you gonna go?
Arizona: Mm. You're going, so I don't have to. See how that works?
Callie: I'm going to speak for Mark, who can't speak for himself. See how that works? You should be at that meeting. You should speak for yourself. I-I wasn't there. I-- It's not a decision I should be making for you.
Arizona: You weren't shy about making other decisions for me. What's different now? I mean, I think you're on a roll.
Callie: I can't do this.
Arizona: Say it, 'cause it was perfect. 'It's not a decision that I should be making for you.' Say it.
Arizona: Say it again. 'It's not a decision that I should be making for you! As opposed to hacking off a limb-- That's the kind of decision I should make for you.'
Callie: Fine, don't go. I will make all the decisions. (Sofia starts crying) Just so you know, I'm going to vote to take the settlement for Sofia, because Mark would want her to have the money.
Arizona: I think Mark would want you to pick up your daughter when she's crying. I guess he's gonna have to deal with disappointment, just like the rest of us.
Dr. Thomas: I googled you. I know how to do it even though I'm old. I know what googling is. I googled you, and it said that you were in a plane crash. (Cristina is silent) Am I talking to myself?
Cristina: I would rather talk about the medicine.
Dr. Thomas: Okay. Notice how I close without using felt pledgets. Hmm? You impressed? I know you are. You're just too prideful to admit it, but that's okay. It comes together impeccably.
Cristina: I didn't think that was possible. I mean, I've tried to suture a myocardium before without synthetic patches and couldn't get it to hold.
Dr. Thomas: Yes, well, the trick is to use a double layer of zero vicryl. It's my signature. I'm the only one in the country who can do it because I've devoted my life to doing it. I don't go home to family and uh, chitchat. I go to bed thinking about this technique. So... What is your signature move, hmm?
Cristina: Oh, I- I don't--
Dr. Thomas: Life is short, you know? You've seen that yourself. So you better get at it. There it is. Now, if you had put in your beloved L-VAD, he would've died waiting for a heart transplant, which would never happen. This way, Bo Bo has a chance at life.
Cristina: Pop Pop.
Dr. Thomas: What? Speak up.
Cristina: Uh, nothing, sir.
Callie: My wife is disabled. My daughter's father is dead. There's nothing we can do about that, but this money will pay for Arizona's rehab. It would take care of our little girl, Mark's little girl. This is a huge amount of money. It's a life-changing amount of money.
Meredith: Alright, so you're saying we take it.
Callie: I'm just saying, you don't walk away from a number like this, right?
Owen: Well, I'm still talking to Cristina, but I think she'd want to take it, yeah.
Meredith: Yeah. I mean, I guess, yeah.
Callie: Derek, what do you think? It has to be unanimous, what do you say?
Derek: I'd say we have until tomorrow.
Callie (about Jo, watching in the gallery): Just let her come down here for a little while.
Alex (looks up, to Jo): Did you check the I's and O's on 31-50?
Jo: I did this morning.
Alex: She doesn't stop crapping and peeing just because you want to watch a surgery. Go and check them again.
Callie: What's your problem?
Alex: My problem is I have 40 patients on my service, the new peds attending is an idiot, and I need help. So until your wife comes back to the hospital, I need my interns to actually work.
Meredith (hits Jackson with a towel): She was a virgin.
Jackson: I know that.
Meredith (hits Jackson again): You defiled a virgin.
Jackson: Stop hitting my head. (Mer hits him again) I sw-- I will go full crazy on you. Alright. I am a grown ass man and she's a grown woman.
Meredith: Yeah, but she's--
Jackson: She's what, April Kepner? Believe me, she is grown. I didn't manipulate her. I didn't defile her or trick her. I didn't take her virginity. She... She gave it to me. Alright? This isn't about something I did to her. This is something we did together, and she can't handle that. So she is praying... to Justin Timberlake, apparently. And I'm pissed. And... it's a mess. So just stop hitting my head.
Meredith: So, Alex is a diseased man-whore again... And April Kepner is no longer a virgin. Wow. I missed a lot with that plane crash.
Jackson: Yeah, you missed a whole lot. The Chief banged my mom.
Meredith: What? The... Owen banged--
Jackson: Webber! Webber. Dr. Webber banged my mom.
Meredith: Oh. Oh. Oh, my God
Jackson: Yeah, I know.
Meredith: Well... if it makes you feel any better, he banged my mom, too.
Jackson: That makes me feel worse.
(On the phone)
Cristina: So, you'll meet with everyone else tomorrow, and see what they want to do and that's that, I guess. I mean, um... I guess I-I-I want to go with what everyone else decides.
Cristina: ... Oh, there is this woman with, like, the most nasal voice you've ever heard of. She does the code calls here. They're unintelligible. I mean, everyone understands 'em, but to me, it's like a foreign language.
Owen (laughs): That's funny.
Cristina: Oh, yeah. You got-- You gotta hear it. You know what? Oh, just wait. It'll happen any second.
Owen: Okay. (they are silent over the phone and Owen smiles)
Derek: No, actually I have a question for you. Do you remember the Donna Drake case? About six years ago, the mother of twin girls.
Richard: Remember it? I can't ever forget it. I won't ever forget it.
Derek: How much did the hospital end up settling with the family?
Richard: Ooh, uh, wow. It was a lot. Uh, I can check the exact amount for you but it was definitely the largest settlement that I can remember.
Derek: Because it was our fault that, uh, she died.
Richard: It's pretty standard. The bigger the mistake, the bigger the payout. They offering you a pretty big settlement?
Derek: Yeah. Yeah, they are.
April: Shoot. This defect's too big. I'm gonna need some mesh. Suction.
Jackson: Here's an idea-- Let's just pretend that the patient never even had a hernia, and then you wouldn't have to do anything.
April: Would you stop? This is not a joke to me.
Jackson: No, you said you're pretending that--
Meredith: What are we talking about?
April: If you would just listen. I'm not pretending it never happened.
Meredith: What never happened?
April: It happened. I know it happened.
Meredith: Could someone just please--
April: But now I am wiping the slate clean.
Jackson: By acting like it never happened.
Meredith: What never happened?
April & Jackson: Nothing!
Meredith (looks between them and realizes): I... Oh... My... God.
Jo: I brought you a coffee.
Callie: Oh, wow. Thanks.
Jo: You have a nice smile.
Callie (smiles): Thanks. (chuckles)
Jo: And, uh... (clears throat) Just beautiful... eyes. You know, if you want to drab-- grab a drink later or--
Jo: I know this Mexican place--
Callie: Okay, okay, okay, you're flirting with me, which is really sweet or would be really sweet if you were into ladies, but I'm guessing you're not a lady lover, 'cause you also look terrified that I might say yes. (sighs) You're poking a bear, a very horny bear. And what would you do if the bear said yes? (Jo looks confused) And there you'd be, trading sexual favors for... I don't know what it is you want from me, so... you're gonna have to tell me.
Jo: I was wondering if it would be possible to scrub in on your next surgery.
Callie: Okay, 'A' never trade sex for scrubbing in because that's just skanky. Save it for actually getting to cut. And 'B', you're giving coffee to the wrong person. (Alex is walking by) Oh, Alex. Your intern brought you coffee.
Alex: Oh, cool. (Jo looks to Callie who nods)
Jo: I was wondering if it would be possible to scrub in on your next surgery.
Alex: That's not gonna happen. But hey, grab me another coffee that was great. (Jo looks at Callie)
Callie: Well, go.
April: Hey, Cristina.
Meredith: April's back.
Cristina: Uh, yeah, I heard. Owen went to a pig farm?
Meredith: Oh. So you're talking to Owen?
Cristina: Yeah, about the settlement.
Jackson (walks in): Hey, what's up, Yang?
Cristina: I'm about to be an accomplice to a murder.
Jackson: I always knew you'd find your specialty. (Bailey is going around the room sticking post-its on everything) What are you...? (Jackson picks up his bag and accidentally hits April and she spills coffee on herself) Ooh... Actually, I know, let's pretend that this never happened. (Bailey puts a post it on Alex's head who's sleeping, and one on Mer's iPad)
Cristina: Ooh, show me. Show me. (Mer turns the post it so Cristina can see. It says 'scrub in with Kepner')
April: Dr. Bailey, all respect, but I can handle a hernia repair on my own.
Cristina: Well, you've been with pigs. Maybe she's worried you'll slaughter someone out of habit. (April gives her a look)
Meredith: So have you thought about the settlement? What do you want to do?
Cristina: Oh... (sighs) I don't know. Whatever everybody else wants to do. I'm a team player, Mer.
Meredith (laughs, and holds up her post it): Apparently, so am I.
Bailey: Look at this! Kepner is doing an umbilical hernia her first day back. (scoffs)
Richard: Uh huh.
Bailey: She failed her boards. She was fired, twice. The closest that girl has been to an O.R. in months in what, the Moline large animal vet? Her head is not in the game. She has... other things on her mind, things I don't even wanna think about.
Richard: So... What you're gonna pull her off the surgery, do it yourself?
Bailey: Oh, don't be ridiculous. I'm getting her a baby sitter.
Dr. Parker: Dr. Yang. How is the great surgeon from Seattle on this fine day?
Dr. Parker: You can't fool me. I'm a reader of faces and your face tells me--
Cristina: This is one of the finest cardiothoracic centers in the country. I came here to do innovative, cutting-edge surgeries with you not ventricular reductions with Thomas is what my face tells you.
Dr. Parker: Look, everybody has to take a shift. Baby-sit the old man. Put your time in and I'll see to it... that you join me in the O.R. very soon.
Cristina: On something good?
Dr. Parker: Well, I'm consulting on a guy with mitral regurg.
Cristina: Are you doing a mitral annuloplasty?
Dr. Parker: Probably. And I'll relocate the tip of the posterior papillary muscle.
Cristina: Are you serious?
Dr. Parker: As a heart attack. (laughs, Cristina doesn't) Cardio humor.
Cristina: Oh, yes, sir. I am laughing, just not externally.
Dr. Parker: Let me see a smile then. No, let me see the great Dr. Yang turn her frown upside down. (Cristina fake smiles) Better. I hope you won't be offended if I tell you that you have a very nice smile.
Jackson: So you staying here or a hotel? What's going on?
April: Oh, yes. Here un-until I find a place.
Jackson: Yeah. I didn't call you, April, because I didn't--
April: I'm revirginizing. Um, it's... It's a thing, revirginizing. It involves a lot of prayer. Which I had time to do in Moline, staring at the N'Sync posters on my wall, which kind of makes me think of Jesus as Justin Timberlake, but my pastor says that's totally fine, you know, as long as I'm still talking to him, keeping the lines of communication open.
Jackson: Okay, April, you--
April: It's my second chance, Jackson. And I didn't think I'd get one, but then Dr. Hunt showed up in Moline and offered me my job back, and that was my sign that I get to recommit myself to god. I- I can accept his forgiveness and-- and have a second chance. A do-over, you know, without all the mistakes, just slate wiped clean. I am--
Jackson: Which is really your way of saying that you want to pretend that you and I never happened.
April: No, that is not... It's-- It's not that simple. (Jackson walks out)
Meredith (cleaning up Zola's toys): How does such a tiny human make such a big mess?
Derek (sighs): Should we settle? It's a lot of money. We could stop work, travel for a while, show Zola the world.
Meredith (laughs): Zola wants to see the park and the pond and the turtle that lives in the pond.
Derek: Okay, so we don't settle.
Meredith: Not settling means what, years of litigation and thousands of dollars looking for answers? And it's not gonna bring Mark or Lexie back. Traveling the world sounds better.
Derek: Yeah, it does.
Meredith: So, you realize Zola's sleeping... And all we're doing is talking?
Derek: Ooh, you're right. I can do something about that right now. (hovers over and smiles)
Alex: This might take a while I need you to stay back and monitor my pre-ops and post-ops.
Jo: But, um... I had hoped-- Since I was the one that saw the toes move, I hoped that I-- But you need me to monitor your pre- and post-ops. Got it. Great. (elevator door shuts on her)
Callie: You could've let her scrub in or stand in the back and observe.
Callie: Because she has joy. I like joy, excitement, happiness, people looking at me like I know things. She practically squealed when I mentioned nerve testing. There needs to be more squealing.
Alex: I can squeal if you want me to.
Callie: That was dirty and inappropriate. Oh, which I hear is your specialty these days.
Alex: Why are you following me?
Jo: I'm your intern for the day.
Alex: Oh, well, hello, intern. Do you have a name?
Jo: Jo Wilson.
Alex: Oh, nice. I like chicks with boys names.
Alex: What? I do. It's hot.
Callie: Stop sleeping with your co-workers. It ruins them.
Alex: I slept with you.
Callie: And I no longer sleep with men.
Dr. Parker: Dr. Yang, famous and infamous. Come on in and take a load off. You took a break.
Cristina: I did.
Dr. Parker: Some R&R.
Dr. Parker: Feels good, doesn't it?
Dr. Parker: What'd you see?
Cristina: I went to the Mall of America. I road the rollercoaster. I purchased jeggings. I'm ready to get back to work.
Dr. Parker: You went on the internet and searched 'Mall of America.'
Cristina: I am gonna be a team player. I mean it. I heard what you said, sir.
Dr. Parker: Then put on some scrubs, young lady.
Cristina: Thank you. I saw you have a laser revascularization--
Dr. Parker: You'll be working with Dr. Thomas, for now. I'll believe team player when I see it, Dr. Yang.
Richard: Morning, Dr. Bailey.
Bailey (looking at the mess Jackson, Mer, Alex & April left): I cannot get used to having them in the attendings' lounge.
Richard: Well, I'm still getting used to having you in here.
Meredith: Hey, Alex... Why did an intern just give me a compliment on the crown moldings in my empty house? Are you still sleeping there?
Alex: Chicks like it better than the on-call room.
Meredith: Okay, that's disgusting. Now I have to have the place tented. Give me back my key.
Alex: You don't even live there anymore. What do you care?
Meredith: Key. Please.
April (walks in): Hey, you guys. Can you believe we're in the attending's lounge?
Meredith: April, what are you doing here?
April: Oh, uh, Hunt came and got me on the farm in Moline. I was giving the pigs their breakfast, and I turned around, and there's Dr. Hunt, offering me my job back. He didn't tell you guys?
Meredith: Did anyone else see Dr. Hunt in the barnyard?
Alex: What he appeared unto you, was he glowing and all?
Jackson (walks in): April?
Meredith: Hunt hired her back.
Alex: We think. It might have been Jesus.
April: I thought that you went to Tulane.
Jackson: Uh, yeah. No, I-I-I changed my mind. (Jackson is changing his shirt)
Bailey: Hey, you people are attendings. You do not change clothes in front of everyone like animals or interns, because nobody wants to see all that.
Alex: Apparently Kepner does.
April: What? N-No, I D-- I don't, I-I wasn't ev- I...
Alex (gets paged): I gotta go.
Meredith: Me, too. Welcome back. (they leave)
Jackson: Glad you're back.
April: I am back... too. I'm a-also glad to be back.
Callie: Do you know what this money could mean for us, for Sofia? I mean, she won't have to take out loans for med school. ... We'd be taken care of. You and me and Sofia. I think that's what Mark would want. You know what I want... More than anything? I want to know what you're thinking, what you want. (goes to push Arizona's hair out her face, Arizona moves away)
Callie: Okay, well, the home health care nurse will be here soon. Try to be nice. Don't throw things at this one, okay? Just... let her help you. Okay. I'll see you tonight.
Meredith: (opening voiceover) Surgeons don't compromise. We defy death. We exceed perfection. We operate for seventeen hours straight if we have to. We aren't built to settle. But that doesn't mean we won't.
Meredith: (closing voiceover) When we follow our hearts, we choose to not settle. It's funny, isn't it? A weight lifts. The sun shines a little brighter. And, for a brief moment at least, we find a little peace.
Derek: Should we settle?
Meredith: Should we not settle?
Derek: I don't know.
Meredith: We should go to sleep.
Derek: Do you want the lights on or off tonight?
Meredith: On, please.
Original International Air Dates:
Canada: October 18, 2012 on CTV
Australia: October 30, 2012 on Channel 7
United Kingdom: November 21, 2012 on Sky Living
Norway: January 1, 2013 on TV2
Germany: January 23, 2013 on ProSieben