Mark: The most refined, professional, and ladylike doctor in this hospital came to my defense tonight. The best that she could come up with was "He's a whore." I'm a whore.
Derek: I slept with her. And the whole time I was thinking about Meredith. Who's the bigger whore?
Callie (to Erica): Okay, so I know I've been avoiding you. I know it's stupid and based on nothing, but when she was here, Addison said... Well, she implied that-- that we were... that I was... that um... you and I might be lesbians. (they start laughing)
Lexie: I just called three of my ex-boyfriends to find out how unforgetable I am. I left messages, I'm sure they'll came me back.
George: So you made a mistake and slept with Alex. No one has made more mistakes, or slept with more inapporiate people, or been more publicy humiliated than me. Let me be an inspiration, I am the Chief's intern. I am the man at the right hand of the man.
Bailey: Did you ever get in touch with that patient?
Bailey: Did you tell her friend?
Izzie: No. Even though it killed me, I didn't tell him.
Bailey: You're growing, Stevens.
Izzie: Yeah, but I wish it would stop.
Bailey: My husband is out on a date. Right now. On a date.
Bailey (passes Mark who is sitting there looking pensive): Pathetic. ... Well, are you comin'?
Mark: To an on-call room?
Bailey (slaps his head): Now, I'm going to save you. Do you want to be saved? Or don't you? (next scene with them is Bailey talking to the nurses) This boycott has gone on long enough. Now, okay, I have no authority here, but I would like to offer my thoughts on Dr. Sloan.
Mark (whispers to Bailey): You're doin' great.
Bailey: Okay, this man is a whore, (Mark stops smiling) has always been a whore, will probably always be a whore. But I mean, that's not a secret. He's not keepin' it hidden. You all knew who he was before you got involved with him, and now you all wanna be all, "Woe is me, he doesn't call me back, he's datin' other women." He's nasty! And that's not just you. He's sleeping with other doctors, and orderlies and cafeteria workers. But he's a doctor here, and a pretty good one. So, uh, let us all close our knees, and get back to our jobs, so he can get back to his job and help that really need it. (she nods to Mark) Disperce! (all the nurses leave)
Callie: Sex. Let's go. (walks off, but Mark doesn't move from the chair and continues to play with the paperclip, Callie walks back) Are... you coming?
Mark: I'm just... I'm not in the mood.
Callie: What? You're always in the mood.
Mark (sighs): I know. But I'm just... All my surgeries got canceled today. You wanna go grab a cup of coffee and talk?
Callie: You're useless.
George: I gave up a major surgery today and all my friends think that I'm a brown nosing perv. But I... It was worth it because I thought that you saw me. But, with all due respect, sir, you're just using me to get back together with your wife.
George: I don't know if it's possible to quit a thing that isn't even a real thing but I do. I quit.
Richard: O'Malley, wait. The truth is, I do see you, O'Malley. I see how hard you work. The Chief's intern is not a real job, but I'd like it to be.
Bailey: Chief, is it true you have everyone in this hospital fillin' out this form listing their personal and sexual relations?
Richard: That's right. (looks at Adele) We are taking this very seriously.
Bailey: But I'm exempt from this? Me. Just me. I'm not even asked if I need to fill out a form?
Richard: You're Bailey. I don't even want to see you holding the form.
Bailey: Okay then. (storms off)
Adele: What you don't know about women... (shakes her head and walks off)
Meredith: Stop singing. (Cristina stops for a moment, then continues. Meredith talks over her) You're going to win your own Harper Avery award. Burke wouldn't have a career if it hadn't been for you. You saved him when he had his tremor. The Harper Avery board may not know it but he does. (Cristina still continues to sing) I'm in therapy. (Cristina stops singing) Because he's with Rose. I'm way more screwed up than you are.
Cristina: Thank you. That makes me feel a little better.
Meredith: You're welcome.
George (to Alex): I need your form. Lexie, I'm gonna need you to fill out this form.
Lexie: What's this?
Alex: The sex police.
George: Meredith, I'm gonna need your form.
Meredith: Don't ask, don't tell, George. Forms are stupid.
George: Yeah. I'm still gonna need it though.
Rose (walks up and whispers to George): I think I'll take one of those after all.
George: What? Why? (Rose laughs) Oh! (he quietly slips Rose a form and walks away)
Lexie: Oh, God. I'm so sorry. (Meredith has this huge fake smile on her face)
George: Do you want to get Cristina?
Meredith: Derek is with Rose, and I am okay that Derek is with Rose.
George: Get Cristina. Get her form.
Lexie: You don't wanna go near Cristina right now.
Meredith: Is she crying?
Lexie: Uh, no.
Meredith: She's staring straight ahead being super scary quiet?
Lexie: She's singing. (Meredith looks worried, and immediatly gets up, and leaves)
George: I still need your form.
Alex (handing his form to him): Here perv boy, enjoy.
George: This isn't complete.
Alex: It's fine. What? (George rolls his eyes and motions toward Lexie who looks horrified) Oh, right. Sorry. I forgot. (walks off)
Lexie: He forgot he had sex with me?
George: I just collect the forms.
Lexie: He forgot he had sex with me?!
Mark: I haven't even said anything.
Rose: I'm not talking to the nurses for you.
Mark: You're dating my best friend. Helping me is one of your main duties, as his girl.
Mark: C'mon, Rose, you're one of them. Tell them that I'm a good guy. A good guy who's just happens to be mind-blowingly good at sex.
Rose: Yeah, but see that, all the talk about sex, that's not what I think of as good guy behavior.
Mark: You know what you are? You're a tease. You string guys along acting like sex is some prize, this thing that they have to earn. When really you're just afraid that once you give it up, he'll lose interest. Oh, by the way, I am a good guy.
Mark: Uh, hey can you talk to the nurses? I need someone to stand up to them, tell them to call off the boycott, tell 'em that I'm a good guy.
Erica: Here's the problem... We don't think you are a good guy.
Mark: Dr. Torres thinks I'm a good guy. (slaps her ass) Don't you, Callie?
Callie: Umm.... (akward silence, and Erica then walks away) On-call room. Now!
Mark: Whoa. You think I'm a very good guy.
Erica: It's because I don't have a penis, isn't it?
Erica: I publish more, I do double the research. I deserve this more than Burke. It's a big men's club, and it's not fair.
Callie: Huh. I didn't even realize you were being considered.
Erica: I wasn't going to mention it until I won. Then I was going to be all nonchalant like awards don't matter to me. (they chuckle) It was going to be very impressive and humble. Now Burke's gone and ruined my whole act.
Derek: Now, let's see, what's goin' on at Seattle Grace today? Well, one of our former surgeons won the Harper Avery award, another is leading a clinical trial that wil the change the course of neurosurgery, and last but not least, one of our surgeons has screwed so many nurses, that now everyone has to document their sexual histories. Walk tall, my friend, walk tall.
Mark: Are you putting Rose on one of those forms?
Derek: That's none of your business.
Mark: That's a 'no', which means she still hasn't let you sleep with her. (Derek sighs and goes to leave) What's she got a treasure up there?
(George is handing on the forms to register the sexual relationships)
Rose: Uh, what do they mean by 'sexual relations'?
George: Yes, they mean relations that are uh, sexual in nature.
Rose: Yeah, I got that, but there are levels. (Izzie smirks at George who looks uncomfortable) ... Of intamicy.
George: Oh! Uh... Well, they don't need to know the.... They just wanna know the... Highest level...
Rose: Okay, then I won't be needing one of these. (hands the form back to him and walks off)
George: I'm sure I don't know how to turn this back.
George: I am not a... (Izzie raises her eyebrows) I am the Chief's intern.
Izzie: Uh huh. Again, that's not a real job.
George: I just need the form by the end of the day.
Izzie: Dr. Bailey, if I can't get ahold of my patient, is it okay to give her test results to her friend?
Izzie: What if her friend is a really good friend of mine, and he's changing his whole life for her because he thinks she's pregnant and she's not?
Bailey: Stevens, you wanna win yourself a Harper Avery, you need to master basics of privacy.
Richard: What would you think about being my intern? The Chief's intern.
George: The Chief's intern?
Richard: George O'Malley, intern to the Chief.
George: George O'Malley, intern to the Chief. Is that even a real thing?
Richard: It is if I say it is.
Mark: Wait, your wife's the union goon?
Adele: Nurse mediator, Dr. Sloan. And you know Wayne Sheehan from human resourse.
Mark: But how did you...?
Richard: Adele used to be a nurse. Apparentaly she's gotten back into the field.
Adele: That's right, Richard. I'm not just a housewife anymore. There have been some complaints about Dr. Sloan, complaints of a sexual nature, complaints which this hospital has, up until now, ignored.
Mark: Hey, everything that I did was consensual. In fact, some of them even begged for it.
Richard (warningly): Dr. Sloan...
Wayne: No formal complaints have been filed. However, the board has decided to aggressively protect itself from possible future litigations. So, as of today, if a hospital employee is having a sexual relationship with another employee they have got to register it.
Mark: You paged me, Chief?
Richard: Human resources called. As of this morning, the nurses are boycotting your surgeries.
Mark: I haven't done done anything to the nurses. ... Well, nothin' that can get us sued.
Richard: Well, whatever you did, they felt strongly enough about it that they sent their union rep.
(Bailey is standing outside the on-call room where Mark and Callie are having sex)
Bailey (knocks on the door): Dr. Sloan? (Callie and Mark giggle) Hey, I've got a baby out that needs to get to daycare.
Mark (cracks the door open): Dr. Bailey. (closes the door a little) Dr. Bailey's baby.
Bailey: It appears Nurse Tanya is no longer available for your liposuction at ten. Shall I cancel the procedure?
Mark: No, no, no. Don't cancel. Gimme a another nurse. Give me Kate. Yeah. (shuts the door)
Bailey (knocks on the door again): Dr. Torres? Dr. Sloan would like to use Kate for his surgery at 10, currently she's scheduled for your arthroplasty, but if you're willing to move it back an hour, perhaps she could do both. (Mark groans, Callie giggles, Bailey knocks on the door again) Dr. Torres, I know you're in there.
Callie (opens the door with a huge smile): Yeah, fine. Just an hour later, an hour earlier, whatever. Hey, Tuck. ... Don't judge me, Bailey. (shuts the door)
(The are all huddled around the Burke article)
Meredith: Has Cristina seen it?
Izzie: Not yet. She's gonna freak. Let's take it down.
Meredith: You can't take it down.
Izzie (hits George): Take it down. Take it down. She never has to know.
Meredith: She's gonna hear about it.
Cristina (walks up): Who's gonna hear about what? (they all turn to face her, and cover up the bulletin board behind them) What is going on?
Meredith & Izzie: Nothing.
Cristina: Izzie, move your hand. Come on. Move it. (Izzie moves it, Cristina stares at the article) Hmm. Good for him.
Rose: There's something that I wanted to say to you last night. But the time I thought of it, you were gone. It's not my intention to torture you. It's just not a thing I take lightly. The sex, with a new guy.
Derek: Rose, it's okay. It's like I said last night. I respect that.
Rose: No, that's not the thing I wanted to say. The thing that I wanted to say is... I'm worth the wait.
Meredith: Every time Derek walks into a room, all I can think about is his tongue. In my mouth.
Dr. Wyatt: So you think about kissing Derek?
Meredith: It's making surgery very difficult. So, I need some tools to help me stop. I need some therapy tools so that I can move on.
Dr. Wyatt: You sure you wanna move on?
Meredith: Well, we have our first clinical trial patient today. And the first four? We've learned a lot, but we haven't saved one. And I really wanna save one. So, I can't be distracted by things like tongues, so I need to tools. Now.
Dr. Wyatt: You're having fantasies about Derek. The only way to get rid of them is to remind yourself of the reality.
Meredith: Which is?
Dr. Wyatt: You tell me.
Meredith: The kissing stuff isn't gonna happen now since he's with Rose.
Dr. Wyatt: Powerful stuff, reality.
Meredith (opening voiceover): There's this person. In my head. She is brillant. Capable. She can do chest tubes and craniotomies. She can run a code without freaking out. She's a really good surgeon. Maybe even a great surgeon. She's me. Only so much better. (we see Meredith sitting on a couch talking to Dr. Wyatt) And I'm afraid I'll never become this person in my head because something keeps getting in my way.
Meredith (closing voiceover): It was a good day. Maybe even a great day. I was a good doctor, even when it was hard, I was the me in my head. There was a moment when I thought I can't do this, I can't do this alone. I close my eyes and imagine myself doing it, and I did, I blocked out the fear, and I did it.
Meredith: It was a really good day.
Dr. Wyatt: Look, I'm just going to say this because your insurance only covers 20 sessions and I feel we should get right to the point. That was a load of crap. It was not a good day, your patient died alone unable to tell the love of his life how he felt.
Meredith: Yeah, but he did it for his boyfriend. I mean, I actually think it was kind of heroic.
Dr. Wyatt: It's a load of crap.
Meredith: Stop saying that!
Dr. Wyatt: Look, let me draw the parallels for you. The tragic patient dies alone while the love of his life is literally in the next room. That's you.
Meredith: What are you talking about? I'm not dying alone.
Dr. Wyatt: Oh. But I think you are, and you're telling yourself you're a hero, when in reality all you are is alone.
Meredith: That is a load of crap!
Dr. Wyatt: He's with Rose.
Meredith (sighs, and stands up): You know what, I'm not going to do this.
Dr. Wyatt: He's with Rose.
Meredith: Why do you keep saying that?!
Dr. Wyatt: Because if you can't see what is wrong with that sentence, 'He's with Rose', we're never going to get anywhere, he's with Rose.
Meredith: Okay! So he's with Rose. So What?!
Dr. Wyatt: And if he's with Rose that means he's not with you. And do you know why he's not with you? (pause) You're scared.
Meredith: Are you calling me a coward?
Dr. Wyatt: I think you are very frightened, Dr. Grey.
Meredith: Are you calling me a coward?
Dr. Wyatt: What do you think? (Meridith leaves)
Richard: Going through all the forms I noticed you didn't hand yours in.
Cristina: No, sir.
Richard: I need you to. The hospital is still liable even though Dr. Burke isn't here. (he holds out the form to her, Cristina walks to the table and fills out the form)
Cristina: There, my sexual relationship. Preston Burke. On paper. Satisfied?
Richard: I know this is difficult for you.
Cristina: It is not difficult, sir. It is simple. Burke is not here. He's gone and he's the better for it. He's winning the Harper Avery award and being celebrated all over the world. That is not difficult. He's out there and I'm here where everything is the same. I still live in his apartment, I walk the same halls of this hospital, I wear the same scrubs. And even that is not difficult. This is where I chose to be. But sir, when his hand was shaking I performed the surgeries, I kept his secrets, I nursed his pride. You know it and I know it, and he knows it. He knows it, and yet nowhere in that newspaper article does my name appear. I am the unseen hand to his brilliance. (turns away to wipe away her tears) Excuse me. And yet while everything is... the same it is very, very, different. Now I'm lucky if I get to hold a clamp. Hahn treats me like... I was his hand and now I'm a ghost. That is not difficult. It's unbearable. I know everybody is proud of him. But I'm not. I do not wish him well. (leaves the room)
Erica: So are we on for tonight or what?
Callie: Um... I don't know. I told you I had a thing.
Erica: I don't ah... make friends easily. I'm awkward and am bad at small talk and generally don't like people I don't know. But I made friends with you and now you have this thing and that thing is Sloan.
Callie: Are you mad that I'm sleeping with Mark Sloan?
Erica: I'm not mad that you're sleeping with Sloan. I'm mad that you didn't tell me that you're sleeping with Sloan. I'm mad at you. Because instead of telling me and admitting that you're one of those girls who goes all poofy when she gets a boyfriend... you disappear with your thing. Mark Sloan. (she begins to walk away but stops) I don't make friends easily.
Bailey: Just wanted to drop off the form myself, answer any questions you might have.
Richard: There are interns on this form.
Bailey: Mmhmm, I require the energy of youth. Dr. Shepherd was just moment of weakness for both of us.
Richard: Dr. Sloan?
Bailey: Oh, that was many moments. In on-call rooms, it was... very hot.
Adele: Mmhmm, McSteamy.
Richard: I'm surprised you haven't listed me.
Bailey: You're not my type.
Richard: Alright, Dr. Bailey I get the joke, okay?
Bailey: See, this is a joke to you. I am a single woman. I've been a single woman for some time now, but the very idea that I could have a sexual encounter... (glares at the Adele and the other board member across the table) ... a consensual sexual encounter, is a joke to you!
Richard: Dr. Bailey, I--
Bailey: So much so that you would single me out of this entire hospital as the one person who couldn't interest a person of the opposite sex? ... It's, it's, it's just...
Adele: It's harassment.
Bailey (slaps Richard's shoulder hard): Just shame on you sir! (Richard rubs his shoulder with a look of shock on his face) Just shame on you! (Bailey grabs the form from Wayne) I made it all up, Wayne. (storms out)
Erica: I can't imagine how you must feel about Burke's award. You helped him with all that research and he didn't even mention you in the article. Well, I guess it's no surprise, his arrogance is legendary... (Cristina is silent) Oh well, I thought we finally had some common ground... (Cristina is still silent) Good for you... refusing to trash him, rising above, it's very impressive. I'm going to follow your example Yang. (Cristina silently acknowledges her comment) Congratulations Preston, I wish you well.
Meredith (after the clinic trial patient is still alive): Oh, that was great. Totally in synch, like we were one person.
Derek: Yeah, it was great. You did great.
Meredith: Uh, obviously his intracranial pressure's going to need to be monitored overnight. So, if you could just tell me the parameters.
Derek: I'll stay. I-I-I mean... We can stay together.
Rose (walks up): How'd it go?
Derek: Great. It went really, really well. Dr. Grey had one of the... She one of the injections.
Rose: I was heading home, I didn't know if you wanted to...
Derek: Yeah, right. I need to stay here tonight.
Rose: Oh, okay. I'll just... (starts walking away)
Meredith: Rose, wait. (to Derek) I... I can page you if there are any problems.
Derek (quietly to Meredith): I'll stay. If you want me to stay, I'll stay.
Meredith: No, you should go be with Rose.
International Episode Titles:
Czech Republic: Doktor v hlavě (Doctor in the Head)
Slovakia: Premena (Conversion)
Original International Air Dates:
Australia: May 25, 2008 on Network 7
Sweden: June 4, 2008 on Kanal 5
Latin America: June 9, 2008 on Sony Entertainment Television
Croatia: June 12, 2008 on RTL TV
Italy: July 21, 2008 on Foxlife
Ireland: August 26, 2008 RTE2
Germany: September 24, 2008 on ProSieben
Belgium: October 23, 2008 on VijfTV
The Netherlands: October 27, 2008 on Net 5
Finland: November 19, 2008 on Nelonen
Norway: November 25, 2008 on TV2
Romania: January 13, 2009 on TVR1
Czech Republic: April 9, 2009 on Prima
Music Featured In This Episode:
1. Carmella (Four Tet Remix) by Beth Orton plays at the beginning of the episode as Bailey walks down the hall with Tuck. Meredith talks with Dr. Wyatt.
2. Like A Virgin by Sandra Oh. Cristina sings the song as she operates on the cadavers.
3. Mansard Roof by Vampire Weekend plays as George begins passing out the forms. Lexie and Meredith are hesitant to fill them out. Rose tells George she will be needing one after all. Meredith goes to find Cristina. Alex turns in an incomplete form.
4. Know When To Walk Away by Jay Clifford plays as Alex has his temperature taken prior to Mrs. Marshall's surgery. Meredith wheels Darren into surgery and notices Todd still waiting in the hall.
5. Brightest Hour by The Submarines plays as Meredith tells Derek she can watch Darren on her own. Callie wants to have sex, but Mark is not in the mood.
6. Only Yesterday by Taken By Trees plays as Meredith monitors Darren. Bailey passes Mark sitting pensively in the hallway, Todd demands an answer from Meredith and Darren's father, and Erica tells Mrs. Marshall that she's still at the top of the list for a new heart.
7. Good Arms vs. Bad Arms by Frightened Rabbit plays as the episode comes to an end. Bailey asks Izzie how she handled her dilemma, George comforts Lexie, Callie confesses why she's been avoiding Erica, and Derek talks with Mark in the elevator.
While discussing Rebecca's current status Alex says to Izzie "She's pregnant, she's knocked up." referring to the 2007 movie Knocked Up, starring Kathering Heigl, in which Heigl's character becomes pregnant unexpectedly.
Episode's Title: "The Becoming"
"The Becoming" is a song by Nine Inch Nails, off the album The Downward Spiral.
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