Sarah Drew (April Kepner) and Jesse Williams (Jackson Avery) are now credited as series regulars.
Cristina: I never gave you any crap about your post-it.
Meredith: You look beautiful.
Cristina: I know. How's Owen? Is he good?
Meredith: Owen's perfect. He's perfect.
Cristina: Thank you.
Mark: I'm jealous. I think I'm jealous of Hunt and Yang. You know Derek's gonna be the best man? We hardly even know the guy.
Callie: I'm gonna do it.
Mark: You're drunk.
Callie: That's why I'm gonna do it.
Arizona (walks up): Liam's surgery ran long, sorry. What'd I miss?
Callie: I have something to ask you.
Arizona: Oh, no.
Callie: I want you to move in with me. I love you, and you have drawer and a toothbrush and I want you to have a whole dresser and whole... blow dryer. Or something more... romantic than that. Or... something.
Mark: You're doing great. Push through.
Callie: Okay. (Mark walks off) Unless... you're just totally hating the idea. Which... would be okay.
Arizona: Is that it?
Callie: Is what it?
Arizona: You just want me to move in? To a place that I basically already live?
Callie (gulping her wine): Mmhmm.
Arizona (smiles): Thank god. Yes. Yes, Calliope, yes. I would love to have a dresser and a blow dryer or something more romantic. (they kiss)
Alex: You look hot. The whole crazy eyes, tight dress thing is working for you for whatever it's worth.
Lexie: You think that you're so bad ass because you lived, but I'm the reason why you lived. And while you were dying you were crying out for the wife who left you. So that's the opposite of bad ass, for whatever it's worth.
Ben: Miranda, um... I was playing golf. And I can't apologize for it 'cause it wasn't anything I did on purpose... I was just... I was playing golf. ... I missed you.
Bailey: You're a good man. You are handsome, and kind, and smart, and good. You're perfect. But um... I'm busy... holding myself together with tape and glue. And a piece of me wishes that you hadn't played golf because... then you'd be all taped and glued too... (starts sobbing) And then maybe you'd be where I am. You... You're too much for me right now... 'cause I'm busy with the tape and the glue.
Ben: I know, I know. ... Take care of yourself.
Bailey: You, too.
Perkins: You know, Dr. Yang, if you don't feel ready, there's no pressure. The hospital's prepared to work with you in anyway...
Cristina: Uh, I'm sorry? I'm getting special treatment because I'm the girl who operated with a gun to my head? If you don't wanna clear me, don't clear me.
Perkins: Well, you didn't show up to your appointment last week. You were very late today.
Cristina: I'm getting married.
Perkins: I heard that. Congratulations.
Cristina: Can I go now?
Perkins: When you think about going into an OR, how does that make you feel?
Cristina (flipping through one of her bride magazines): God, the women in these magazines... Some of them are actually brides, you know, they're not all models. All smiling. It's like the only thing in the world that matters is that they find the perfect shoe to match that dress. God, you know, I knew these girls, I went to school with them. It's funny. I used to feel sorry for them. They're simple girls. They just wanna find the guy and get married, you know? Live. I don't know. I think your either born simple or you're born... Me. ... I want to be the person who gets happy over finding the perfect dress. I want to be simple... because no one holds a gun to the head of a simple girl.
Cristina: What is wrong with you?
Meredith: Everything is wrong. Derek is decaptiting a teenager and April Kepner is assisting. And you're sitting reading about lillies of the freakin' valley.
Cristina: Well, you prefer peonies?
Meredith: We are not better. (Cristina sighs) Cristina, a psychatrist given several opportunties, has deemed me unfit to do my job.
Cristina: Well, he'll get over it. Just go back in a couple of days.
Meredith: You are not better.
Cristina: Well, in a couple days I'll be better, too.
Meredith: In a couple days, you'll be married.
Cristina: Are you trying to talk me out of this?
Meredith: Look at me and tell me that you're sure.
Cristina: Okay, you know, no you don't get to do this, okay? All you get to do is help me break the tie between of the lilies of the valley and the peonies. That's it.
Meredith: No, no, I do get to do this. I do get to do this, Derek is the love of my life, but you're my soulmate. I do get to do this. I mean, why can't it wait six months?
Meredith: Your flowers aren't going anywhere. You broke up with him because he couldn't choose you.
Cristina: Don't. Don't do this.
Meredith: Just why does it have to be right now?
Cristina: You know what I think? I think you should tell Derek about the miscarriage.
Meredith: We're talking about you.
Cristina: We're talking about us not being better. Then you need to tell him.
Meredith: He's not ready. He's not okay.
Cristina: Well, you're not okay. You should tell him.
Richard: The board officially reinstated me this morning. No more interm chief.
Derek: Well, I'm glad to hear that.
Richard: Are you sure? No seller's remorse?
Derek: Have you seen the tumor I'm chasing? No. No seller's remorse.
Richard: You feel good about this surgery?
Derek: That sounds like a loaded question.
Richard: Look, I know Perkins cleared you for surgery and I know better than to question your judgment. But I still have nightmares, and I go to two AA meetings a day, I'm not all the way back and I didn't get shot. That's what I mean when I say do you feel good about it?
Derek: I feel adrealine. And yeah, the adrealine feels good.
Teddy: Andrew and I just got busted by Meredith Grey.
Arizona: Callie's watching me sleep.
Arizona: She's watching me sleep and she only watches me sleep when something is up. And I'm afraid that she's gonna propose or start talking about making babies again, which I am open to, honestly. Just... Not right now. And I can feel her watching me and it is such hard work to keep my eyes closed but I know that if I open them I know something loaded is gonna come out of her beautiful mouth and pop the pretty pink bubble that we've been floating in.
Teddy: You want to pop the bubble.
Arizona: I don't, though.
Teddy: Believe me, I've been living in that bubble for years. 'Oh, no, Owen and I, we're just friends, really.' Finally knowing the truth, I don't regret that.
Arizona: My bubble is so pink and so pretty.
Teddy: Pop the bubble.
Meredith: Who's with Derek?
Cristina: Oh, when I left Mark Sloan was with him.
Meredith: And where's Owen?
Cristina: I- I don't know. I think he's still talking to the police.
Meredith: Okay, not a word of this to Derek. You have to tell Owen 'cause he knows. Not a word.
Meredith: And April Kepner, she knows too.
Meredith: Well, go, go tell them. Go back to the hospital and tell them right now.
Cristina: Don't you want me to stay for this?
Meredith: No, I want you to go. Go. And make sure no one says a word to Derek.
Meredith (walking in on Teddy and Perkins kissing): Oh, is this what I need to do to get cleared?
Perkins: Dr. Grey, you're early. (to Teddy) I'll uh, call you later. (Teddy leaves)
Meredith: That was creepy and inappropiate. I want a new counsulor.
Perkins: Teddy was never a patient of mine. She was cleared before I got here. We just met in the cafeteria.
Meredith: I'm not interested in your love life. I don't care how love blooms over day old hot dogs. My husband is about to removed the largest cordoma on record. You cleared Lexie Grey last week, you cleared Alex Karev who insists on running around the hospital with a bullet in his chest.
Perkins: I know who I've cleared.
Meredith: So why don't you tell me what you want to say and I'll say it.
Perkins: Dr. Grey, I don't think that you're being honest, with me or yourself. And I think that is a potentially dangerous situation.
April: I'm sorry I got you shot. Coming out of the office, I didn't listen, and then you shot. I got you shot and I just wanna say that I am so, so sorry.
Derek: Gary Clark came here for me. I gave the order to pull the plug on his wife. I got everyone shot.
Perkins: You quit your job this morning. Should I be worried about implusivity?
Derek (laughs): I didn't quit my job. Being chief, wasn't my job. I'm a surgeon, that is what I do, that is who I am.
Perkins: But before you got shot...
Derek: Well, I wanted to quit that job everyday before I got shot, I just didn't have the guts to do it. After I got shot I, uh... Life is short. So now I think less and just do.
Perkins: So for you the shooting was clarifying?
Derek: A lot of people died in that shooting.
Perkins: I'm saying in your life today.
Derek: A lot of people died.
Bailey: I'm happy to see you all. (pause) Karev, there's a patient in 2304 that needs an endoscopy. (hands him a chart) Grey and Yang, surely your paycheck covers more than stuffing your face in the basement. Get to the clinic, now. (Mer and Cristina leave) And you two, I'm awful sorry about the loss of your friends.
April: Thank you.
Jackson: So are we.
Bailey: 2213 has a bowel impaction and I'm sure as hell not about to stick my hands in there. (hands them a chart)
Jackson: I dig weddings. I do a mean chicken dance.
Cristina: Oh, there will be no chicken dance. And if you start a congo line, I will physically throw you out.
April: I just went to the cafeteria and some nurse called me 'Reed' and then said 'I thought you died'.
Lexie: Yeah, you don't go to the cafeteria for lunch, they just point and stare.
Jackson: Is that what why you dyed your hair?
Cristina: They stare because we should have died.
Lexie: Pack a lunch, keep it in your locker. (Alex walks up, then smiles and shows them his form for going back to surgery)
Meredith: You're kidding me? You got cleared?!
Jackson: It's down to you and Yang.
Meredith: That is not funny.
Cristina: Perkins is no dummy, he can see the crazy right under the Meredith Grey surface.
Meredith: Again, Cristina, it's not funny, 'cause you're not gonna get cleared either. The two of us are gonna be serving slushies and the multiplex.
Cristina: Really? I'd choose dermatology over multiplex.
Jackson: I'd go gynocology over dermatology.
Cristina: Oh, of course you would. Perv.
Lexie: I think I'd go with psych. (everyone is silent) That was a joke. (they force a laugh)
Meredith: Anyway, I don't know what Perkins problem is with me.
Cristina: Maybe he saw your file.
Alex: Maybe he knew your mother.
Jackson: Maybe he heard how you told the shooter to shoot you.
Meredith: Not funny.
Jackson: Not a joke.
Perkins: You've been working.
Alex: In the clinic, in the pit. We haven't been aloud to operate, which makes zero sense if you ask me.
Perkins: I'd like to talk to you about the incident last week.
Alex: She's not responsiblity.
Perkins: She was your girlfriend.
Alex: Well, she's not anymore. (flashback of Lexie having a breakdown and Alex walks away)
Perkins: Why did you walk away?
Alex: Look life is too short. I almost died trying to stop that guy. Besides, you know how much tail you get offered when you're carrying a bullet in your chest? It's like I'm a legend.
Perkins: Are you always this crass or is that a defense mechanism?
Alex: I've had too much crazy for one lifetime.
Mark (walks in): You cleared Lexie Grey for surgery?
Perkins: Dr. Sloan, I'm in session.
Mark: I had to check her into psych last week, I had to commit her against her will! And you just clear her for surgery? What the hell kinda doctor are you? (turns to see Lexie standing behind him)
Lexie: It's okay, you can talk to him.
Alex: I'll come back.
Mark: Yeah, walk away. You're good at that. (Alex leaves)
Perkins: She got snowed. Psych put her on heavy doses of anti-psychotics and benzos, and then she slept for almost 50 hours straight. And when she woke up she was no longer a risk to herself or others. She has PTSD, most of you do. For her, it caused severe slept deprivation and led to a breakdown. All she needed is sleep. So, protocall is that she goes back to work.
Lexie: See? I'm okay. Really. I'm back.
Perkins: On the day of the shooting, I understand that you had a practicually difficult day.
Bailey: On the day I gave birth to my son, my husband had a car crash and he needed a crainotomy, and he almost died on Derek Shepherd's table. Now, that was a practicually difficult day, and at the end of that day, my son was born and my husband lived. But at the end of this day... the um... Um this day, was the worst day of my life.
Owen: That was quite a show this morning.
Derek: I didn't plan it.
Owen: That made it even better. Any regrets?
Derek: No. Any regrets to proposing to Cristina?
Derek: Getting shot turns out to not be the worst thing after all.
Owen: I need a best man. I know... I know we're not that close, but I don't know, you being married to the other twisted sister, I just thought it makes us brothers or something.
Derek: I'd be honored. It's an honor.
Owen: Thank you.
Derek: You need a bachelor party?
Derek: Even better.
Perkins: Does anyone have anything to say? I know that uh, a lot of you are only here because this had been mandated. So... let's talk. (everyone is silent) Anything at all?
Cristina: I ate a really good taco from one of those trucks beside the road.
Cristina: Last night. You were asleep.
Jackson: Which truck? The one at 7th?
Alex: I wanna go, I like tacos.
April: Me, too.
Lexie: I read a book. About the history of mass murders in the US. You know, that's the actual name of what happened to us, it was a mass murder. You can't call it a terriost attack because the murders weren't political in nature. And we weren't the victims of a serial killer because Mr. Clark would have had to had murdered several people in a period longer than 30 days to qualify as a serial killer. We-- We could call it a spree killing which is defined as killings in two more locations with no break or pause in between 'cause Mr. Clark shot that guy in his car before he got here. But I-I'm not sure that, that counts as a true second location since it was so close to the hospital. Which means that we were a mass murder. Because it happened at one place, by one person and more than four people were killed.
Derek (to the hospital staff): It's great to be back. First of all, I would like to thank Dr. Webber for stepping up in my absence. Uh, I'm grateful for all you, for all of your support during my recovery, thank you. It's just... It's so great to be back as Chief. I'm grateful for the... I'm sorry, that's a lie. It's what people say, and the truth is... I hate being Chief. I hate it. Chief Webber... Chief Webber's our chief. And I'm sorry, but this giant... I gotta go look at this cardoma, I'm sorry... But I quit.
Meredith: You got cleared for surgery?
April: I did.
Meredith: What are we picking?
Cristina: Dress color. I'm not wearing white, it's sexist and vaguely racist. No white, no vail, no rice.
Meredith: Well, what would your mother say?
Cristina: Oh, no mother.
Meredith: Well, the next time, I'll leave you there.
Derek: You said that already.
Meredith (to Cristina): Oh, Derek got arrested again, reckless endangerment.
Derek: Meredith, please.
Cristina: Did he lose his license yet?
Meredith: Oh, no, because they don't charge him because the cops worship him.
Derek: Because I saved some of their lives.
Callie (smiles): Nothing. You're just awesome.
Meredith: So, the shooting changed me. I'm changed. But I'm also ready to get back to work. I mean, as ready as any of us are. Sitting around the house, waiting, I just spend my time worrying.
Perkins: Your husband was shot. That's a lot to worry about.
Meredith: I'm worried about Cristina. She's getting married and that's just... Well, I had to cut her out of her last wedding dress with scissors, so...
Perkins: You watched your husband get shot.
Meredith: He's fine. He's coming back to work today, actually. We're all fine.
Meredith (opening voiceover): Every cell in the human body regenerates on average every seven years. Like snakes, in our own way we shed our skin. Biologically we are brand new people. We may look the same, we probably do, the change isn't visible at least in most of us, but we are all changed completely forever.
Meredith (closing voiceover): When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.
International Episode Titles:
Czech Republic: Biologická nutnost zmny (The Biological Need for Change)
Finland: Kuin uudestisyntynyt (Born-again)
Music Featured In This Episode:
1.Midnight Hour by Reflection Eternal: Talib Kweli & Hi-Tek
2.Teach You To Fly by Wiz Khalifa
3.Backed Into The Corner by Amy Stroup
4.Salt In The Wound by Delta Spirit
5.Undertow by Timbaland feat The fray & Esthero
6.Thistle & Weeds by Mumford & Sons
7.Stare Into The Sun by Graffiti6
Original International Air Dates:
Canada: September 23, 2010 on CTV
Sweden: October 6, 2010 on Kanal 5
Finland: OCtober 20, 2010 on Nelonen
United Kingdom: January 5, 2011 on Living TV
Germany: March 30, 2011 on ProSieben
Croatia: May 12, 2011 on RTL TV
Thailand: June 5, 2011 on Star World
Norway: July 19, 2011 on TV2
Czech Republic: December 5, 2011 on Prima LOVE