About 6 months ago I lost a family member that was a very big part of my life. I never got to pay my respects at his memorial, as it was in San Diego and I am on Long Island. The rest of my family had gone, but, due to illness, and being on Social Security, I could not afford to go. I feel I never got closure and never got to say goodbye to someone I loved so deeply. I guess I am just feeling bad for myself, and every time I think of him, I feel sad, I miss him, and hope that my family and he understands. What do you think?