so i decided i am lonely.
hey hey hey.
so basically i was watching dawson's creek the other day and dawson was talking about being lonely i was like whattt, he's got friends blah, blah, blah. whatever, just me analysing everything. and then i was like waittt, that's me. i have my friends who i see more often than not but i am still sad all the time and i can't figure out why. and i always feel like something is missing all of the time. but then i give my head a shake and tell myself i have three of the best friends in the world that anyone could ask for. i have a good, normal family. i don't hate my job as much anymore. but at the same time that may be some of the problem. everything on the surface is pretty great. i am bored with everything and i am lonely. i want an adventure. i don't know, i'm crazy and i am whining as usual. don't worry about it. 
so here is an exceptionally long quiz i felt like doing.
STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.
R- run.
E- everybody.
N- never alone.
STEP TWO:
- Name: lauren
- Birth date: 11/06/90
- Nickname: ren, lo. many others.
- Eye Color: sorta hazel. sorta brown. sorta green.
- Hair Color: dark, dark brown.
- Zodiac Sign: scorpio
STEP THREE:
-The shoes you wore today: white etnies. i was in an emo mood.
- Your weaknesses: not saying what i really mean, when it matters.
- Your fear(s): loss. not living my life. heights. rodents. storms.
- Your perfect pizza: thin crust. alfredo sauce. mozza cheese.
- Goal you'd like to achieve: to have an adventure.
STEP FOUR:
- Your best physical feature: i don't know. i get a lot of compliments on my hair.
- Your Bedtime: whenever i wanna go.
- Most missed memory?: being best friends with char.
STEP FIVE:
This Or That...
- Pepsi or Coke? pepsi.
- McDonald's or Burger King: neither.
- Adidas or Nike: nike.
- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea.
- Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla.
- Cappuccino or coffee: neither.
STEP SIX:
Do You...
- Smoke: absolutely not.
- Curse: constantly.
- Sing: badly.
- Dance: definitely.
- Take a shower everyday: hopefully.
- Have a crush: infatuation.
- Do you think you've been in love?: never.
- Want to go to college: wish i was already there.
- Like(d) high school: loved high school. completely and totally.
- Want to get married: maybe, i don't have to though.
- Get motion sickness: in the car.
- Think you're attractive: not really. i don't think i'm unattractive either.
- Think you're a health freak: never. i live on junk food.
- Get along with your parents: for the most part.
STEP SEVEN:
In the past month...
- Gone to the mall: yeh.
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: never done that business.
- Eaten Sushi: never have, never will.
- Been on stage: nope.
- Gone skating: i wish.
- Made homemade cookies: have not.
- Gone Skinny dipping: god no.
- Stolen anything: never.
STEP EIGHT:
Ever...
- Played a game that required removal of clothing: sadly. yes.
- If so, was it mixed company: it would be weirder if it wasn't.
- Flashed anyone: sorta. long story.
- Been beaten up: never.
- Shoplifted: nada.
STEP NINE:
- Age you hope to be married: whenever.
- Numbers of Children: four. three girls. one boy.
- Describe your Dream Wedding: winter. close friends. family. princess dress. purple. orchids. lillies.
- What country would you most like to visit? the world. anywhere, anytime.
STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex..
- Best eye color?: super blue. or, almost black, brown.
- Best hair color?: dark.
- Short hair or long hair?: depends.
- Height: taller than me.
STEP ELEVEN:
- Number of people I could trust with my life: six. 3 best friends. 1 sister. 2 parents.
- Number of CDs that I own: wayyyy too many.
- Number of tattoos: none. yet.
- Number of piercings: two. one in each ear.
Personal Quiz
Who were you with yesterday? work people.
What woke you up this morning? my annoying alarm.
Where are you? in my basement.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? yes. i am FINALLY going to see twilight.
Do you like anybody? infatuated.
THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? yes.
Passed out because of alcohol? nope.
What's on your mind RIGHT NOW? abby morgan.
THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? victorian. antique-y. lived in.
What do you want to be when you grow up? lately, it's been law related.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? i really don't know.
IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? not at all.
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? probably something at work today.
Do you listen to music every day? definitely.
Do you still go trick or treating? never was big on the halloween business.
What was the last thing you ate? old school. pizza pops.
Are you a fast typer? not slow. not fast.
Whats your favorite type of soda? pepsi. root beer. iced tea.
Have you ever moved? never.
Have you ever won an award? many nerdy ones that plagued my middle school life.
Are you listening to music right now? nope.
How long 'till your birthday? a little less than a year.
When were you the saddest in your whole life? when my grandma died in grade ten.
What time is it? 8:52 pm.
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? nope.
Who makes you mad? managers.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? no.
Something you want to happen in 2009? anything. life.
Summer 2009? more life.
Honestly, do you miss 2008? parts of it. high school.
HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what color are your underwear? black. as always.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? high school.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? this. watching dawson's creek season two. watching vids on youtube. and facebooking.
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? nope.
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? kat.
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? yes.
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? managers.
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? when they are ripped and are annoying the pants off of me.
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? not seriously.
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? yes.
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? fairly.
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't actually like? not anymore.
17. Honestly, are you in denial? i am annoyingly self aware.
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? if i want to.
19. Honestly, do you like anyone? infatuated.
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? i don't know. probably not.
ANGER SECTION
1. What do you do when you're mad? scream. throw things. keep it to myself.
2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? tore up my front lawn with my car.
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? oh yeah.
4. Do you swear when you're mad? i swear constantly.
CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? i can't remember. recently.
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? who hasn't.
3. Do certain songs make you cry? close.
4. What usually makes you cry? situations.
HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? yes.
2. What makes you the happiest? being in a group of people that you are truly friends with and being to sit in complete silence and be comfortable. and being able to look at any of the people and know what exactly is going on in their head with a single glance at their eyes. basically good friends.
4. Do you believe in yourself? absolutely. and i want a tattoo saying just that.
5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? really, who doesn't. compliments are almost always nice.
so there is a completely unneccessary, excessively long quiz!
good night, and good luck.
i can't wait for gossip girl on monday!
