Ok, someone please explain to me that love isn't everything in this world. i got so depressed when my friend told me that she got a new boyfriend. i was happy for her, but it feels so unfair. not a single guy even looks my way. (don' say anything, i know that i just pity myself) anyway... and yesterday, when i was on my way back home, a kid came up to me and asked me if i was a boy or a girl .. And when i asked my mother if i looked like a boy, she only said "I don't think that, but you gotta admit, sometimes you act like one" ok, that's true.. I sometimes forget my manners (not all guys do that). and my friend thought i was crazy when i asked her... w/e i'm so pissed at myself, last year i was dating a kinda cute guy. but since he was a little bit of a player, i stopped seing him. but now he wants to hang out with me again and a part of me wants to be with him 2. gah!!! i should now better - he's a player!!! and a girl one or two years younger than me, keeps flirting with me and thinks that i like her... i'm only her friend and i've told her that. yet still she continues with all the nice comments and she keeps calling me and saying that we should go out... T_T my life sux at the moment... scratch that.. my life sucks!!!

i'm gonna be sick for the rest of my life!! gah! i'm so pissed right now... this da*n cold that i have wont go away... and on top of that - my computer broke!!! i dunno what happened to it T_T and i think that one of my friends are mad at me... cause i cancelled our meeting when my cousins came to visit... problems just keep coming.

the summer has been a totally failure this year... i'm sick which means i'm stuck in this warm oven for apartment with my brother and my cats and the problem is - i'm allergic to cats T_T gah!!! and there is nothing to do inside - exept playing gamecube which i do 24/7 but i've almost completed Sonic Heroes - gotta love that game, my brother even got me a cute knuckles plushie!! >___< *happy* that's like the only good thing that this summer have brought me... *sighs and walks away*

today was my last day with my class.. T_T it's so depressing, even though i chose to change school.. i'm gonna miss them so much!!!

and other stuffs that happened today.. i went to the beach with my cousins and their cousin - she's from australia.. well i'm gonna eat now... cya all, hugs and kisses to everyone ^^

what's the meanest thing a friend has ever said to you?  the only thing i can come up with is when a so called friend of mine said: *laughing* she dissed you! haha, she doesn't like you! *laughing* even if she was just joking with me... i was really hurt... this happened last thursday before my swedish lesson... i saw my cousin passing by and asked her to come and join me and my friends - but she couldn't cause her lesson was just about to start... then my "friend" said the comment... do i sound like a loser? i sure feel like one. my dad told me not to care about what she says and i want to take his advise... but it's hard... even though someone is joking when they say something 50% of what they say is true... anyway, i'm going to bed now.. cya ^^

I'm so sick of school right now! *sigh* every f*cking teacher gives us tons of assigments... i don't think i can handle it for much longer... and just because i didn't show up yesterday in school my friend hate me... i can't help that i'm sick, right? she knows about my condition and i thought she would understand... 

anyway... so it about 9 schooldays left now... i can't wait!