Hi everyone, tho i dont have friends in this site i just want to express my feelings and writing a blog could help... It happen all this week, the holy week, well, first of all im not into the church thing never has been... my parents dragged me to sunday mass when i was little but when ive learned that im gay i stopped coming, it my personal choice.

The plan, simple me and my bf together with another 3 couple will spend our holidays in a beach, im so exited coz it will be our first trip for a long time, then he decicded to come home for the holy week coz his family will have a reunion, and he invited me to come along.... that excite me more, wow meet the parent kind of stuff... so i decided to go with him, after a 2 1/2 hours drive there we are Laguna, the hometown of my wizhart...

Then it all gone wrong...

first my lovely bf introduced me as a FRIEND,great so much for meet the parent kind of stuff... i have a feeling it will be a very nice vacation... second another great surprise, i have my own room, yipee, i have plenty of sex, third there is no family reunion, its a class reunion, with his highschool class, with his hs sweeheart, fourth and the worst i have to pretend im straight, you know buddy-buddy...

you see all the fun i have, if you still dont get it, i will give you all the details...

He introduced me as a FRIEND, we've been friends first and i can live with that, as long as you'll probably treat me as what we truly are when were alone, but no, instead, the moment you stepped to that place its like your this straight guy, ashamed of me... second, i said at least can we share a room, he point blank said no, he cannot risk exposing our relationship, what a crap, is there a monitor in your room?!? third, the reunion thing, im cool with that at first coz, i believe that you will better see a persons character when he/she is with his/her friends rather that with his/her family, the only thing i despise is the ex gf flirting, and please do you have to flirt back... damn... the last and the worst i have to be straight... well i can passed straight but why do i have too, where just friends in here, i am not sharing your room, so why not i can be your really close gay friend...

in short we got into a huge fight because of the straight thing and i can be stubborn you know, so while playing spin the bottle, i kissed this really cute classmate of him which i sense can be gay and i said he is the best looking person here... super fun...

now im back here in manila alone coz he decide to just stay there for few more days till summer class starts and i miss him but i wont say sorry...

XOXO allen

sequel here

for my first blog post i'll post facts about my self

my real name is allen john de guzman, im a 20 year old student from the phillippines. Im studying to be a geodetic engineer at university of the phillippines diliman, currently on my fourth year. i love my course and being good in math helps a lot. nope im not a good student i suffer some failed subject, but i never take a subject thrice.

relationship?!? well im gay and i have a boyfriend... we're in our 2 years and still going strong. i love him, but monogamy for me is a big factor in the relationship... my bestfriend once told me you cant find a loyal gay boyfriend but i dont know i surely think he's loyal coz sex is always great. We met in our first year at school, he is my blockmate. he is straight when i first met him, i know this because he got a girlfriend.. i befriend him and device an evil plan to turn him gay.. we been friends for 2 years till i sense hes beginning to like me, so i said this exact words to him 'i think this friend thing is not working out for me, i have a crush on you the first time we met and now im begining to love you... i know its a risk for me but i cant go on with my life knowing your just a friend. the ultimatum, search your self if you could like me or just never see me again' of course its in tagalog but hualah i got him... hahaha

im a visual person, meening i am not contented with listening alone, so my hobbies includes reading, watching tv, computer games, movies and internet... favorite book all john sandfords novels, but i love the empress file best, its a kidd luellen story. favorite tv show, survivor and janice dickinson modelling agency. im in movies.yahoo.com, tv.com and veoh.com the most. favorite movie, kate and leopold...

other facts, i love coffee, color green, bowling, swimming, sex, pizza, chinese foods, oranges, grapes, sinigang, squid... i smoke malboro lights green and drink beer a lot. i am a part-time model, mostly doing bikini contest and some minor shows. i cant drive coz i have a phobia of car accidents... i hate spiders, rain, fries and rain

lastly i am not a writer see with the blog..

-allen-