Dear You,

Music: Regina Spektor - Samson

I graduated. I got my tattoo a long time ago now, btw. Forgot to mention both.
Really, don't bother to read this blog. It's filled with lyrics of songs you should download. Actually just read which songs you should download.. and download em.

Songs to download:

Regina Spektor - Samson (Actually all of her songs are good.. )
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first , I loved you first
Beneath the stars came falling on our heads
But there just soft light, there just soft light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
He told me i was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors and the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
and kissed me till the morning light, the morning light
and he kissed me till the morning light

Samson came back to bed
not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

My Chemical Romance - This Is How I Disappear (.. all their songs of "the black parade" are good)
To un-explain the unforgivable,
Drain all the blood and give the kids a show.
By streetlight this dark night,
A séance down below.
There're things that I have done,
You never should ever know!

Who walks among the famous living dead,
Drowns all the boys and girls inside your bed.
And if you could talk to me,
Tell me if it's so,
That all the good girls go to heaven.
Well, heaven knows

Can you hear me cry out to you?
Words I thought I'd choke on figure out.
I'm really not so with you anymore.
I'm just a ghost,
So I can't hurt you anymore,
So I can't hurt you anymore.

And now, you wanna see how far down I can sink?
Let me go, F*ck
So, you can, well now so, you can
I'm so far away from you.
Well now so, you can.

And without you is how I disappear,
Forever, forever now!

Johnny Rzeznik - I'm Still Here
I am a question to the world,
Not an answer to be heard.
All a moment that's held in your arms.
And what do you think you'd ever say?
I won't listen anyway…
You don't know me,
And I'll never be what you want me to be.

And what do you think you'd understand?
I'm a boy, no, I'm a man..
You can take me and throw me away.
And how can you learn what's never shown?
Yeah, you stand here on your own.
They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.

And you see the things they never see
All you wanted, I could be
Now you know me, and I'm not afraid
And I wanna tell you who I am
Can you help me be a man?
They can't break me
As long as I know who I am

They can't tell me who to be,
'Cause I'm not what they see.
And the world is still sleepin',
While I keep on dreamin' for me.
And their words are just whispers
And lies that I'll never believe.

And I want a moment to be real,
Wanna touch things I don't feel,
Wanna hold on and feel I belong.
And how can they say I never change
They're the ones that stay the same.

I'm the one,
'Cause I'm still here.
I'm still here.

The The - Sweet Emotion Replay
The more I see
The less I know
About all the things I thought were wrong or right
& carved in stone

So, dont ask me about
War, religion, or god
Love, sex, or death
Because....

Everybody knows whats going wrong with the world
But I dont even know whats going on in myself.

Youve gotta work out your own salvation.
With no explanation to this earth we fall
On hands & knees we crawl
And we look up to the stars
And we reach out & pray
To a deaf, dumb & blind God who never explains.

Every body knows whats going wrong with the world
But I dont even know whats going on in myself.

Lord, Ive been here for so long
I can feel it coming down on me
Im just a slow emotion replay of somebody I used to be.

Natalie Merchant - My Skin
Take a look at my body
Look at my hands
There's so much here
That I don't understand

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

Contempt loves the silence
It thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils
That strangle the heart

They say that promises
Sweeten the blow
But I don't need them
No, I don't need them

I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable

I'm a slow dying flower
Frost killing hour
The sweet turning sour
And untouchable

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
Angel sweet
Love of my life
O, I need this

Do you remember the way
That you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness
I loved and adored?

Your face saving promises
Whispered like prayers
I don't need them
No, I don't need them

O, I need
The darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
I need this

I need
A lullaby
A kiss goodnight
The angel sweet
Love of my life
I need this

Is it dark enough?
Can you see me?
Do you want me?
Can you reach me?
Or I'm leaving

You better shut your mouth
Hold your breath
Kiss me now you'll catch my death
O, I mean it

I reall hope you enjoy the songs..

Smile,

Natasja

Dear You,

Music: Muse - Sing For Absolution

I realized that I only talk about myself on here, lol and this is like.. tv.com so what the f*ck are we supposed to talk about? tv-shows and movies... so let's do tv-shows and movies.

But wait.. first of all.. Mando Diao

I went to the "Music In My Head Festival" in the Hague a couple of days ago. I got to see my favourite band (atm) live and it was so freaking beautiful, heavenly and exciting. Those guys are great live and so f*cking arrogant I love it. You should seriously check out all their songs, and when I say all of them I really do mean all of them. It's amazing how every song by them has a different st.yle and yet you always know it's Mando Diao. It's amazing how great they are and they know it too. Mando Diao. Mando Diao. Mando Diao.


Tv-Shows
1. Grey's Anatomy
Operations. Relations. Complications.
Medicine nor relationships can be defined in black and white. Real life only comes in shades of grey. A drama centered on the personal and professional lives of five surgical interns and their supervisors.

2. Never Mind The BuzzCocks
A comedy trivia quiz based around pop music, currently hosted by Simon Amstell. Team captains Phil Jupitus and Bill Bailey are joined each week by different music stars.

3. Hotel Babylon
Hotel Babylon is a tantalizing insight into the world of 5-star hotels. Only the richest and the most famous stay at this exclusive hotel. Charlie along with many other dedicated staff that try to accommodate for the high demands for the guests of Hotel Babylon.

4. Skins
Fast-paced and full of angst-ridden fun. Eleven teens struggle with highly-charged issues of race, religion, sexuality, drugs, and food disorders. With a solid set of good actors, expect the drama to consist of a lot of well-played emotional ups and downs.

5. Prison Break
Freedom is an illusion. All that matters is staying alive. Escape is Just the Beginning .
Due to a political conspiracy an innocent man is sent to death row and his only hope is his brother who makes it his mission to deliberately get himself sent to the same prison in order to break the both of them out from the inside out.

Well, wasn't that just bloody brilliant?

Lips are turning blue
a kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
my beautiful

tiptoe to your room
a starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
and you never knew

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

our wrongs remain unrectified
and our souls won't be exhumed

Movies
1. A Clockwork Orange
Being the adventures of a young man ... who couldn't resist pretty girls ... or a bit of the old ultra-violence ... went to jail, was re-conditioned ... and came out a different young man ... or was he ? In future Britain, charismatic delinquent Alex DeLarge is jailed and later volunteers for an experimental aversion therapy developed by the government in an effort to solve society's crime problem... but not all goes to plan.

2. Devdas

A grand saga of timeless love. After Devdas his wealthy family prohibits him from marrying the woman he is in love with, Devdas Mukherjee's life spirals further and further out of control as he takes up alcohol and a life of vice to numb the pain.

3. Trainspotting
Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a starter home. Choose dental insurance, leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose your future. But why would anyone want to do a thing like that? Renton, deeply immersed in the Edinburgh drug scene, tries to clean up and get out, despite the allure of the drugs and influence of friends.

4. Y Tu Mamá También

Abandoned by their girlfriends for the summer, teenagers Tenoch and Julio meet the older Luisa at a wedding. Trying to be impressive, the friends tell Luisa they are headed on a road trip to a beautiful, secret beach called Boca del Cielo. Intrigued with their story and desperate to escape, Luisa asks if she can join them on their trip.

5. Star Wars Episode III: Revenge Of The Sith
The saga is complete. After three years of fighting in the Clone Wars, Anakin Skywalker concludes his journey towards the Dark Side of the Force, putting his friendship with Obi Wan Kenobi and his marriage at risk.

Well, this took long enough. I'm out.

Smile,

Natasja

Songs to download:

* Muse - Sing For Absolution
* Just Jack - No Time
* Damien Rice - 9 Crimes
* Nada Surf - always love
* Mando Diao - Mr Moon (Just listen to as many songs as possible by them, biatch!!)

Dear You,

Ok, i'll post another blog though I don't see the point of it.

I don't know what to say or what to tell. I notice a change on tv.com when blogging your post? Or am I wrong? I can't change my freaking pictures but i'm not that bothered.

Oh, finals. Yeah, i've taken all my exams now. I failed biology. miserably, probably. I hope I didn't fail Economics miserably otherwise i'm f*cked. Ohwell, I had it coming. I should have studied.

I've been brooding lately, I like that. Thinking a lot, but it gets me so down. I've realized that i'm a contradicting person. Oh, oh. Aren't beautifully broken people.. so.. beautiful?

"Look At What You've Done
You Did This On Purpose
You Took Out The Fun
Of Scraping The Surface"

- Kárin Tatoyan

That girl is awesome, I hope she gets big or whatever she wants to.

I feel like i'm chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me. It feels good and bad. Something to look forward to, but it's all not that meaningful yet I put so much meaning to it. Meh.

I bought Mary Jane Shoes, they're cute. I ordered a thong online, lol. First time I did that. It's so cute. Em, bought hotpants, 2 dresses and something else but I cannot remember. It's all lovely. I'm kind of broke at the moment. Had to tap into my savings so I have some money for my upcoming concerts and alcohol, obviously. Kinda sad, but I'm going to pay myself back.

Life is good. I've got so much to be happy for. I dislike how we stupid humans are discontent with life. F*cking spoiled biatches. Hmm, yeah that felt good.

"Don't cry cos it's over
Smile cos it happend"

On this happy note, i'll stop.

Smile,

Natasja

Songs to download:

* Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry
* Carla Bruni - Quelqu'un m'a dit
* Soulsavers - Revival
* Amy Winehouse - You Know I'm No Good
* Matisyahu - Jerusalem

Dear You,

Music: Me First And The Gimme Gimmes - I Believe I Can Fly

I don't feel like writing about myself.
I've been good and busy.
The Sounds - concert was good. Support - Under The Influence Of Giants was freaking amazing. Loved it.

I made my mommy upset. She caught me drunk again. Not good. I made her cry. Not good at all. We've had this 'accident' which involved me and too much alcohol. I think my mother is traumatized because of it. And she's always been against me drinking. It's f*rbidden(why the f*ck can't I write that without it being censored?). So I told her I wouldn't drink (again). Another lie, but I do feel sorry for her. I appreciate her not telling my dad...

That's it.

Smile,
Natasja

Songs To Download:

Nine Inch Nails - This Is The Only Time
This song is freaking awesome. Mind you, NIN is freaking awesome. I love the sounds and the lyrics is amazing.

Im drunk.
And right now Im so in love with you.
And I dont want to think too much about what we should or shouldnt do.
Lay my hands on heaven and the sun and the moon and the stars.
While the devil wants to f*ck me in the back of his car.

Nothing quite like the feel of something new.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up.
Maybe Im all messed up in you.
This is the only time I really feel alive.
This is the only time I really feel alive.

I cant help thinking christ never had it like this

Under the Influence of Giants - Lay Me Down
You should download all their songs. They're funky, oldskool r&b with alternative, indie rock. Beautiful songs.

Natalie Imbruglia - That Day
The song is ok but the lyrics is beautiful !


That day, that day

What a marvelous mess

This is all that I can do

I’m done to be me

Sad, scared, small, alone, beautiful

It’s supposed to be like this

I accept everything

It’s supposed to be like this


That day, that day

When everything was a mess

And everything was in place

And there’s too much hurt

Sad, small, scared, alone

And everyone’s a cynic

And it’s hard and it’s sweet

But it’s supposed

To be like this


That day, that day

When I sat in the sun

And I thought and I cried

’cause I’m sad, scared, small

Alone, strong

And I’m nothing

And I’m true

Common ft. Will.I.Am - I Have A Dream
A nice song and I like the meaning of this song. I also like how they used Martin Luther King's saying: "I Have A Dream".

My Dream Is To Be Free

Bloc Party - The Prayer
Because Bloc Party freaking rocks and this song is beautiful. The sounds in this song is soo amazing. Enjoy it. Love it !

Is it so wrong to crave recognition?
Second best
Runner up
Is it so wrong to want rewarding?
To want more than is given to you?
Than is given to you?

Tonight make me unstoppable
And I will charm, I will slice,
I will dazzle them with my wit
Tonight make me unstoppable
And I will charm, I will slice
I will dazzle I will outshine them all

Dear You,


Music: Bright Eyes - It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends

March 1st 2007:
I went to Amsterdam with two guy friends. We went to the "JET" concert.
"The Blue Van" was opening. I wasn't too sure about them but after
hearing them they rocked my socks. I loved the bassist cos he was being such
an attention-whore on stage. The leadsinger let the crowd play on his
guitar for a second or two.
Then "JET" came and it was beautiful.
They were absolutely flawless. The only annoying thing was that people
started moshing, which was something I didn't expect. So I got shoved
around the whole time and I couldn't concentrate that well on the
music. Out of frustration I started pushing them annoying people away,
haha.
After the show I bought two albums by "The Blue Van" and all
the bandmembers signed it for me. I talked to the leadsinger and Jesus
(The keyboardist/vocalist; he looks like Jesus) and took a picture with
them. Then I had to bother the awesome bassist again so I talked to him for a bit and we took some pictures.
All and all. I call it a good night.

March 3rd 2007:
I went to Amsterdam again with a girl friend of mine. On the way over
there I got to learn so much about her and we both found out that we
have almost everything in common which makes her rock. We have the same
clothing stylo, same music taste,
same film taste (we both dig indie movies unlike most of my friends)
etc. I learned she's really open about everything what I totally loved.
So we went to this Irish Pub in Amsterdam. It's like one of my favourite
places I like to go to when I feel like drinking my night away or just
to have some fun. And as always, I did. I told her about my sexuality
and I loved her reaction. But the alcohol might have a little bit to do
with it, haha. After sitting in the pub for over 2 hours we went to the
"Klaxons" concert. "Aux Raus" was opening and they were funny. Being
very tipsy at that moment made everything sound really good. haha. Then
"Klaxons" came and ohmygod it was too beautiful. As they were getting
their instruments ready I saw that they placed the keyboard right
infront of me and I told my friend: "The cute one is right in front of
us." Meaning James. "Klaxons" was really great, they blew me away.
Which I knew they would. Afterwards I got James his plectrum. Yeuhh.
And I bought their album and a t-shirt. Then we went back to the pub
for more drinking. My priorities changed that night !!
Fun fact:
We were walking on the street, trying to find her dad's car. She was
talking on the phone, I was joking around. All of a sudden she fell
down and she dragged me down with her cos I was holding her hand. How
embarassing.


Well, that's two off of my cool-things-coming-up-list.


My schooldays have been ok, kind of boring.

My dean almost caught me. I was skipping school again and that lil
b*tch called home and my dad picked up. Asking where I was. That
crazy-ass mofo. Thank god for lies.


That's it. Don't feel like sharing anything else. Thank you for reading and breathing.



Smile,

Natasja


PS: Cool songs to download

Bright Eyes - It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends
Brand New - Sowing Season (Yeah)
Regina Spektor - Us
AFI - The Leaving Song part 2
The Blue Van - Don't Leave Me Blue