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¿Escuchas? Do you listen? Listening. It's more than just hearing. It's a skill not all people harness, especially when it is something you really don't want to hear. Listening can be key, though. If you listen, you will hear new and interesting things that would have never crossed your mind, otherwise. If you listen, you are allowing someone else the opportunity to change your perspective.

It scares me, sometimes to look around and realize that sometimes, no one will listen to you. Sometimes, you're just a mute. Sometimes, your voice just isn't heard. Even if what you have to say actually makes sense and is important. Sometimes, people don't want to hear it.

I don't know, I guess it really infuriates me. The fact that I'm fifteen makes me feel like I have a tatoo on my forehead saying, "I'm an idiot. Don't pay attention to me." When, in fact, that contradicts my entire being. I'm not your average teenage stereotype, so don't treat me like I am.

I guess, however frustrating it is, people not listening to others could actually be a somewhat good thing, if for no other reason than it makes you appreciate it that much more when you find someone who will hear you out. Someone who will listen to your entire side of the story.

I can't decide if I like it or not. Have you ever just sat there with someone, and didn't know what to say? And then, it gradually turns into an overwhelming silence to the point where you don't even know if your voice will work anymore. You don't want to try to break the silence because you fear that your voice will sound way too loud, and the silence has it's own beauty to it.

I've decided that I'm not really good at being around people that don't know everything about me. It's hard for me to keep up a conversation with them. Sure, I can think of plenty of things in my head, but I like it that way. Talking just doesn't seem that appealing to me. I have no idea why it is just like this with people that haven't known me very long, but it is. It's like I'd rather it be just me and my thoughts than anything else. Man, if someone could read all of my thoughts, I'd probably be in a loooot of trouble. But, my thoughts are probably my most favorite thing in the world, if that makes sense. My thoughts are very logical. They help me see new things every day. My thoughts are unique and different. They are completely 100% me. I think that's why I sometimes prefer silence to talking. In silence, it's just me and my thoughts.

Does anyone else just randomly jam out to music?

And, I'm talking like full-fledged jamming out. Music all the way up, singing at the top of your lungs into a hairbrush, and dancing like you're a tad bit insane.

It's like the best thing ever. Very calming.

Oh darn, Dad's here. Later!