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The Bottom Line: "Perfect"

A quick minute on Sam, he is going out at night's with Ruby while Dean is sleeping and hunting.

I have a whole new-found respect for John Winchester, while he was always a bit of a stubborn hard ass, who did ultimately love his boys, it was a bit humbling to see him as guy who just returned from war and wanted to marry a woman whose family did not approve. What though was not to approve? He was a well-mannered, war hero who seemed to have a bit of money. Well it seems that it is not that he was not worthy, but just that he could not be brought into the family business. The biggest reveal is that Dean and Sam are actually third generation hunters, both their parents were hunters and their maternal grandfather and grandmother were pretty experienced hunters. So with this reveal, Dean now realizes that he is here to stop Azazel from killing his mother a few years later. As it turns out, Azazel was making deals with people for their children to build his army. Now after he kills Samuel and Deanna, he goes after Mary, but he kills John instead, and that is when Mary makes the deal, John's restored life for Sam's soul.

Of course this is now going to weigh on Dean heavily, he failed to save his family, again. What is interesting, do we think that John learned what he knew about hunting from his wife? Did she tell him about her life before him especially since her family was gone?

Now what I do think is that Mary remembered Dean's warning and went looking for Azazel on November 2, 1983, thinking she could stop him and he killed her, thus beginning the saga.

Now it wasn't until I watched the episode twice, I noticed Dean's odd reaction to learning his grandmother's name, Deanna, was Dean named for her or was he possibly named after himself, having met his parents and going by the alias Dean Van Halen, it was an odd occurrence.

Another entertaining moment, was Dean convincing his father to buy the Impala instead of a VW bus, good call.

The episode was well-written and planned. It offered a really interesting history into the Winchester family. And a bit of a warning of what is to come, and we are all left wondering if Sam can be trusted?

The Bottom Line: "Perfect"

I'm a huge fan of Arianne Zuker. Her character, Nicole, is my favorite character. She adds such an element of comedy that is so necessary. Arianne is so talented, being able to play Nicole that she can be so horrible, and yet, I still side with her!

It's also great that she seems like such a nice person in real life, too. From everything that I've heard/read, she seems so awesome. Plus, she's so talented at things other than acting, too.

She's so gorgeous and amazing. I'm jealous...

I hope she stays on Days for the rest of its run because she's the most entertaining.

Okay, this wasn't as articulate as I would have hoped, but as long as it's clear that I'm a huge fan, then that's the gist of it...

The stress that I like to call my life.

Well I havent blogged in a long time. Frankly ive just been way too busy. Im taking 18 credit hours this semester, normally i take 15, but when it came down to it I was either gonna have to do 18 this semester or 18 next semester, so I decided to get it done now....anyways i never realized the HUGE difference that adding 3 extra hours on would make such a difference but it really has. my life on MTWs are literally school until 12, work until 630 and then i have a night cla$$ MTWs from 630-930...im always so wiped out by thursdays its awful.

So not a lot has been going on in my life. Tomorrow is my sisters baby shower, yeah ive learned something new about myself over the last few weeks. Im the WORST party planner ever. There were some invites i didnt get sent out until a few days ago *shhhh dont tell my mom that* But ya my sister is living at my house again. I went over there last night to talk to my mom about some stuff and well I guess stephs husband was out drinking again and my sister came back home. BLA i mean i love my sister but my parents need to stop letting her come home every time she and her husband have a problem. she is the one that married him and we all know that she is always gonna go back to him =/

Anyways when i was at my house i was feeling nostalgic and decided to look at some old pictures from my sophomore and junior year..omgee i have changed SO MUCH! i dont even look like the same person. i hate how like 'lazy' i am now. I know im a college student and tats allowed, but seriously i never wear makeup anymore, i hardly ever dressup anymore its bad. I think ive just become to comfortable i guess..i mean derek has seen me in every shape and form and its like hey he isnt even living here right now so whats the point in dressing up, theres no one to impress =/ ya me and my best friend in high school, ashley, we would like wear skirts and cute outfits all the time! now look at me ( i know u cant see me but ya) haha anyways so thats my new goal...over the next two months I wanna get myself back tocaring more...lol thankfully i havent gained too much weight since high school, maybe like 5 pounds, but yeah i dont wanna be one of those girls at the reunion ten years from now that people cant recognize..in a bad way! so i better start shaping up now...and then i can look amazing for derek when he is home to visit

So Lauren is moving to texas next semester...which means i need a roommate. Lauren is the only person i have ever felt like i could live with. Im just not easy to live with,..like people get on my nerves REALLY easly when im around them too much. Wiht lauren we have just known each other are entire lives. Derek has talked about us living together for a bit while he is home. He told me he would pay his half of the rent even while he is still in Cali, but seriously he is gonna be going to Iraq within a year and then what...i just keep living by myseld? I dont think so...so right now its looking like i may be spending next semester at home =/ that could be interesting...

Wow well this is a pretty long blog If you actually read it all leave me a comment! Hope everyone has a GREAT weekend...I know i owe a lot of ppl some PMs...im working on it i promise!!!

P.S. for those of you that dont know..im OFFICIALLY going to china!!! YaY!

updateeeeee!

HEYYYY!

it's been awhile. as usual. i love my random blogging habits. I am sitting here extremely bored and i had a huge nap today so i am so not tired even though i work in the morning i should be in bed. but whatever. so last blog.. haha. things have changed a bit, but not a lot at the same time. so last blog i wrote about my cousin's family dying. i haven't heard too much since they live like ten hours away and my family has never been that close to them since it's my mom's considerably older half brother who she never really knew. but apparently he isn't doing to great but really what can we really expect. he lost his entire life. and the other main part of my blog. henry. so we talk about once a week and the conversations are always the same. start out as hey, how's it going kinda thing and go to how much he misses me. and like i miss him too. but i am not the one that did this to our friendship. but i think we might be good now. but that's one of my main things that happened yesterday so i will save that.

so i have been working lots and it's really annoying and it kinda makes me hate life at times since i hate my managers but whatever. i need a new job but i am far too lazy to get one. i have been spending quite a bit of time with my aunt and uncle the only thing that sucks about that is that they live like 2 hours away and it's quite a waste of gas to go and see them. but i have so much fun with them, they have 2 little girls and i love them to death. and i get to ride when i am out there and i love it. i have been spending most of my free time with kaia again. we have totally and completely recovered from this past summer's issues. i love being friends with her it's so much fun.

so i took defensive driving last week because i am a ticket freak and have two on my license and since i have a gdl license i only can have 8 demerits and i had 7, i figured it was about time before i lost my license. that course was the most boring thing of my life. and there was some freakks in that room i wanted to punch a few of them in the head. so there was a test at the end and you had to get over 80% to pass and get the demerits off and i have the worst test anxiety everrrr. so i finished and he was marking them in front of you. and i was the second last one to get it marked and the guy behind me was trying to get all my answers so i was playing dumb even though i am actually quite smart. PS. this kid totally looked like a gangster derek from life with derek. so i give the guy my test i was like i can't watch you mark this i have worse anxiety ever. and i was standing in the corner and he's like i don't know what you are so worried about you only got one wrong on the multiple choice. and after he finished marking it he was like you got 96%, by far the highest mark. and the gangster derek just looked at me and said, you must be a very good guesser. i was like i guess i am. it was funny. i enjoy being a brat.

so yearbooks came out. i am in a bunch of pictures and i have never been any before. i was like awesome, my grad year i am in a bunch. there was some of me from wakefest and one of me and kaia in the cafeteria. and like 4 from grad. one in the cap and gowns. and 3 in the dresses. one with me and a bunch of my girl friends. one with me and kaia and one with me and henry during the walk. it was nice. i like it a lot.

so my blackberry cracked out. and isn't working so i am using my dad's clunker of a phone and it's very frustrating. it wasn't texting at one point and like i don't need to be texting it was the fact that i knew that people were texting me and i wasn't getting them and i felt like i was missing out. but then on sunday when i was at my aunt and uncles, i went and got my phone after supper and i have like 50 messages. every text that had been sent to me since i switched my phone over, i got. and i like i don't have any of these numbers in my phone and i only know a select few off by heart so it was so annoying. i kept having to look them up on my sheet of numbers.

so yesterday was entertaining. i was at work and i get on my hour break and i have this text about my birthday. saying basically, i know your birthday is a month away but what do you want and all of this. and i didn't know the number and i knew it wasn't one of my best friends since i know all of their numbers off by heart so i get to my car where all of my numbers were and it was henry. so i responded and said nothing or anything was good kinda thing. but honestly i wanted to scream. like this kid still doesn't have his birthday present from me since he stopped talking to me two days after his birthday. and like before his birthday he told my friendship was all he needed and i wanted to just scream that at him because i would take that friendship back in seconds. either way the conversation leads to me saying i wasn't going to do anything for my birthday so he might actually have to hang out with me to give me said gift. and he was like you mean so much to me, i care deeply and greatly about you and all of this crap. and i was like you always say we will hang out and we never ever do. and he's like i am sorry and all of this stuff and whatever. and the conversation kinda died. the whole thing kinda surprised me in the first place because he's dating someone right now and i always have gotten cut out when he has a girlfriend since they don't like me. because all of this is never been subtle.

so then yesterday i went and hung out with kaia after work and she decided she wanted to go to the college volleyball game because two guys we knew from high school play and she's been hanging out with the one quite a bit. so we went. and we got there a bit late and we walk in. and it was totally at our old high school and it's so weird being in there. and we get there and fricken henry and kent are there with a few other people we all used to know. and like kaia saw them right away and we sorta went their way and then they noticed us and were standing up and waving and stuff and we kinda give them a baby wave and head over there. and like when we get there we both get the biggest hugs ever from the both of them. and it was normal. NORMAL. it felt so nice. to be normal with them all again. how we all used to be. and we just talked. and it was back to the old normal flirtation. and just being to talk and everything. and i got to scream about it not being my fault and everything i wanted to say. and like it feels so good now. like it still sucks a little that i will never be what it was. but at least i still feel like i have my friend back. because before, we kept having this miss you conversation over and over again and it was so frustrating and to me it was kinda like we can talk all we want over text but it didn't feel like it would be normal if we saw each other. it felt like it would be awkward. and it wasn't. it's the hugest weight off my shoulders. i feel so much better. i don't think i even knew how much it was still bothering me until i realized how good it felt to be back. just the whole thing. to see people and everything to be what it was three months ago. there were so many people i knew there and i got to talk to lots of people and after i was done talking to them i could naturally gravitate towards my actual friends and it wasn't weird. ahh. so happy about it all. feel so much better. i am so close to having everything back and it makes me so happy.

last night being at that game it was so weird. it felt so much like high school and made me realize even more how much i miss it. i used to go every volleyball, basketball and football game and last night being in my old school watching volleyball with lots of my old friends it was just like frick, i miss this. so much. i wanna go to a football game so bad still but i have no reason to be there anymore and it's just pathetic. but i miss everything about it so much. from the time i was in grade nine i literally went to every game minus two last year because i had to work. i even went to a lot of the away games and everything. because in grade nine my friend i transferred played and i met all of the guys and i just started going. and even after my friend dropped out of school and stopped playing i continued to go. it was such a fun thing. and i just miss it so much. and my sister has been going to them and i am so jealous. i miss high school so much.

overall i am happy though. i felt so good today. ahh. i have so much back with one conversation. i got to scream and be normal and feel confident in a friendship again. it was incredible. and i saw kady last night for the first time in forever which was super amazing too. everything was so great last night. ahh. so nice.

so this was a rambling mess but i just needed to get all of this out. it felt so nice just to write it all down. and for once, it was all good.

PSSS, a tv show made me cry, more than one actually. the first time ever. i never cry at tv. ONE TREE HILL. Q's funeral episode. so saddddd. and ER. i cannot believe they killed pratt. i cried like a little baby, it was ridiculous. favorite character and he died. and it was so sad. anyone who watches the show, when they were taking him to the elevator. ahhh. bawling.

ooo, i read a good book. THE PACT, by jodi picoult. so good. highly reccomend it. i read NINETEEN MINUTES by her this summer and it was good so i looked up rest of her books and since i am a bit of sucker for love stories i thought the pact might be good for me. and it was. actually quite amazing. and with a bittersweet ending. READ IT.

anyways, PEACEE.